Forty-one sleeping pills- How did you decide on that number?
After thirty or so, I think I would have said, "No, I'm fine."
You tried to call me
I was at work, I didn't have my phone
You tried to call my number
When you felt all alone
You tried to call me and I knew
You told me you'd do it
And being in love with you, I believed you
10:24, that's the time you posted on your Facebook wall
You wrote that time and date and wrote, "That's when it all ended"
I had just got home from work and was playing cards with my friend
When i saw that post and saw I had a missed call at 10:24
I kept playing cards, I didn't know what to do
I had to use strategy, I didn't want to lose
I tried thinking about the best card to play
I completely forgot the rules but kept on a poker face
1116$, that's how much it cost you
To sponsor an orphan neither of us two had ever met
As some kind of surprise to me you had bought me two Les Paul Guitars
Left handed, you were gonna send them in the mail to me overseas
I said no, I told you it was silly
I said you needed the money
"Why not spend it on something good, why spend it on me?
You'd be better off sponsoring an orphan or something"
So that's what you did
And you tried to call me
And I knew, you told me you'd do it
And being in love with you, I believed you
Forty-one sleeping pills- how could i predict
That in a game of cards I'd covertly send you a message
In some stupid hope that your Facebook post meant nothing
And you'd answer?
But you answered
You were at the hospital but you were alive
All these numbers dictating what's okay and what's alright
What's normal, what's natural
Cold hard calculation telling us who lives or dies
But you have uncalculatable amounts of love
Beyond time, beyond money
Beyond life, beyond death
You are uncalculatable, you are beyond all explanation
And you tried to call me