Kota - Up in My Head Lyrics

No one said I deserved him
And oh I'm called self servin
I live imperfect broken
I spend my time in nothing
I Dowse myself fake lovin
Cause yeah, I hope he sees it
I'm a perfect reality
Always flexing speciality
No one ever keep track a me
C'mon baby you tellin me
C'mon baby you tellin me
Said is it real if I make it up
If I'm f*ckin up my mind like it's dead
Said do you feel what I feel
Or baby did I make it up in my head
Tell me when I'm broke down yeah broke free
He's says it's cool but babe I'm not what he wants me to be
I don't know why, I gotta drive
He's taken got a girl yea
It ain't right
And I wanted to love you but you said I couldn't
And I wanted to feel you but you said I wouldn't
And I wanted you in my head but babe I'm confused
And I wanted to kiss your lips but you told me not to
Said is it real if I make it up
If I'm f*ckin up my mind like it's dead
Said do you feel what I feel
Or baby did I make it up in my head
I wanted this my whole life, but I don't think I can do this (I don't know what I'm doing)
I don't think I can live like this, if I can't have him (I don't know what I'm doing)
What am I doing? I don't even know him (I don't think I'll get through this)
And he's stuck in my mind (I don't know what I'm doing yea)
Said is it real if I make it up
If I'm f*ckin up my mind like it's dead
Said do you feel what I feel
Or baby did I make it up in my head
I don't know what I'm doing
I don't know what I'm doing