Long-Winded Video (MV)

The thought of not growin probably my worst fear
Got a couple regrets I been holdin for years
Holdin this pen got me holdin back tears
But im lettin them go to let you know that I'm here
We tend to live this life fast and not cherish
Then get sad when these moments pass and can't bare it
The day that my brother passed I still hear it
That pain like this rona mask, I still wear it
Forever and always but never for attention
Please accept my apology if I forgot to mention
Your name when i'm listin the people i'm grateful for
I know there's a couple things you still hate me for
The job that I chose documents my maturation
It shows my growth daily please have patience
The gift and the curse of livin on front street
I just hope when you see me for me you want me
We're no longer 16 so let the streets leave
Self conscious artist scared to let the leaks leave
We won't live to a hundred so let the heat leave
I'm long-winded, I gotta let this beat breathe

Trapped in my thoughts way worse than quarantine
But I did some reflection so I give more of me
More life and more joy dawg there's more to see
They livin through me to reach my homie's dreams
Weight on my baack but never hate it in fact
My last race got last place but well the greatest is back
Took some time to myself and now my latest is that
What you would call amazing, God elevated my raps
I still put the work in cause prayer without action
Leads to nothin ever movin and that's dissatisfaction
Scared to be yourself, camouflage you adapted
They can't look in the mirror cause they always livin backwards
Eyes in front so when I fall down
I catch myself, I give my all now
Lost my brother and I hate that I cant call now
But the meanin of his leavin is the reason why i'm tall now
I pray you took this time to self meditate
Too often we trip and start to detonate
Then we run to these pills to self medicate
Man, I pray we find a better way
Stand for somethin if it's nothin else
Don't be too proud to not accept the help
I'm givin you gems within these writtens
I hope I make you proud before i'm finished
I'm sorry if i'm long-winded