Let It Go Video (MV)

My mama gave me up when I was nine years old.
She didn't destroy my body, But she killed my soul.
Now it's cold cause I'm Sleep'n in my back seat.
Understand the spirits with me, but my flesh is weak.
Let me speak, I never had a chance to dream.
Ten years old and finding love in dirty magazines.
Ms.December, you remember? I bought you twice.
Now I'm thirty plus and still pay'n the price.
I had a sister that I barely knew.
Kinda got seperated by the age of two.
Same mama, different daddy so we couldn't fake it.
I saw my sisters daddy beat her in the tub naked.
Take it serious, The demons in a mans mind.
The same man on rape charges, Now he's do'n time.
Crack followed and like daddy prisoned thirteen years.
Haven't seen her, but she's traded tears for fears.

[Chorus:]
Shout, Shout!
Let it all out!
These Are the things I can do without!
So come on..
I'm talking to you so come on

Sex was how I made it through
Without someone to teach you love what else is there to do?
So where I'm from they call you gay and say you ain't a man
Show them you ain't no punk
Get all the girls you can
A simple plan that still haunts me even now today
Back to seventeen and got a baby on the way
NO G.E.D. all I see is failure in my eyes
If you listening then remember I apologize
I was raised falling in the church
Made mistakes heard the Lord's calling in the church
After service on the parking lot getting high
Wanted to be accepted so bad I was willing to die
Even tried to tell the pastor but he couldn't see
Years of low self esteem and insecurities
Church taught me how to shout and how to speak in tongues
But preacher teach me how to live now when the tongue is done, help me

[Chorus:]
Shout, Shout!
Let it all out!
These Are the things I can do without!
So come on..
I'm talking to you so come on

See I'm.. See I'm..
Soul survivor }{ Soul survivor
World survivor
I just wanna let it go
World survivor }{ soul survivor
I Just wanna let it go

Jesus please on my knees can't you hear my crying
You said to put it in your hands and lord I'm really trying
You wasn't lying when you said you'd reap what you sow
Like that night mama died
Hard to let it go
You adopted me
Cared for me
And changed my name
But I cursed at you
Lied to you
Left your pain
It's not strange I can still see it in my head
To know for hours you were laying in that bed
If you listening to this record,
If it's day our night
If my mama still living treat your mama right
Don't be like me and let that moment slip away
And be careful cause you can't take back what you say
To my real mama if you listening I'm letting it go
To my father I forgive you 'cause you didn't know
The pain was preparation for my destiny
And one more thing lord let my son be a better man than me.

[Chorus: x2]
Shout, Shout!
Let it all out!
These Are the things I can do without!
So come on..
I 'm talking to you
so come on