Keystone - Runnin' Outta Options Lyrics

Seven years in the city
I got my visa coming to an end
Got questions all up in my head
Coming through and through again
I'm sayin' f*ck
I'm not really not leave and
Tryna keep my head out the water
I'm tryna keep on breathin'
Deadlines coming up
Doubt starts to ease in
If you ain't seen me smile lately
That's the f*ckin' reason
Sit down let me tell you
About the things you don't see
Let me talk to you like we're sitting in a room
And it's just you and me
I got a job but they won't sponsor me
Regardless it's a lottery
Unlawful stay is a lotta risk
I ain't taking chances with stop and frisk
Going back to school? Not an option
It really ain't worth the tuition plus
I gotta get paid now
Big bills big rent
That's the cost of living in NY
With 500k you can actually buy the Green Card
That's half a milli ain't that crazy
I had to say it twice
Everything in America got a price
Doesn't matter I don't have the funds
If I did I'd do something better
With the money anyway
I'm on my way to a Pulitzer Prize
I'm a young black Ernest Hemingway Goddamn
Don't wanna do no fake marriage
Can't let a girl have that leverage
Runnin' outta options
Runnin' outta time
Cold sweats in the middle of the night
My girl turn around asking
"Babe are you alright"
I'll miss her and I know
She'll miss me too
You're a lucky man if in the hard times
She sticks by you
So many people
I didn't get to say goodbye to
Every time you see someone
Well it might just be the last
At a party feelin' sad
While everyone's having a blast
I know you know the feelin'
Catching up with somebody
And they ask how you doin'
You tell 'em you're all good
Tryna keep a straight face
But inside you're down bad
Cause of the problems you face
I had very little happiness left
So I took a loan from hope
Thinking there'll be better days
To help me cope
But dammit it's getting harder
And the stress is getting higher
If I said I handle it well
Then that makes me a motherf*ckin' liar
Forget about Keystone
I'm talking 'bout Kindi
I'm drowning my sorrows
In a bottle o' Bacardi
Had to break my lease
My landlord finna sue me
He can't find me overseas
Or at least that's what I'm assumin'
In the midst of the chaos
I still can't forget to be thankful
There's people out there wishin'
They could be walking a mile in my damn shoes
Immigration done put me through things that you can't understand
I can't crack under pressure got ice in my veins
Motherf*cker I can't lose
Had to pack up all my shit quick
Barely celebrated my birthday
Love and hate relationship
But I'm still gonna miss the city wow
At the end of the day
That struggle wasn't in vain
Cause I know for a fact
It made me a stronger man
So I stay hopeful through the pain
The sun comes after the rain
Thinkin' while I'm on the plane
One day I'll be back again
The only thing I can do
Is try to make a way
I'm now talking to you
From 4000 miles away