First of the month
I'm out in LA
Smoke in my lungs
Stuck in a heat wave
Cold call from Ellie
Say it's not as special without me
Hearing her voice crack
Split me in half
Kinda vacation you never get back
All cause a kid's little crush didn't last
Didn't plan for it ending so fast
But it's not about that
I've got a complex with growing up
I'm over nostalgic, young, and dumb
Spending every August at your summer home
Don't even know what I'm scared of losing most
It's heart-shaped castle honeymoons
It's something I could run back to
But I can't anymore
I'll be fine
Keep what's yours
You got a girlfriend
So I keep my distance
Hold no resentment for you
But I do for the chapter of life
That I lived in
One that I wasn't ready to finish
Yeah it's not about you
I've got a complex with growing up
I'm over nostalgic, young, and dumb
Spending every August at your summer home
Don't even know what I'm scared of losing most
It's heart-shaped castle honeymoons
It's something I could run back to
But I can't anymore
I'll be fine
Keep what's yours
Cause I want
Different things
Than I did before
A house on a river
Was big enough at seventeen
Now it's small for me
I've got a complex with growing up
I'm over nostalgic, young, and dumb
Spending every August at your summer home
At your summer home