Kendis - fate Lyrics

How could I be fine
When you're still the one I want
Dancing in the kitchen light
Somewhere across the time?
Talking about us running errands on a Sunday
Sleeping on the same bed
Now I'm waking up from those dreams
Tears run down my face
With the memory of your taste
I am running all the way
Back to where we stand
Far apart
I am going more insane
And time goes by and you're not there
No one knows how we felt
I have nothing left to say beside goodbye
Thank you and sorry for everything
I hope you'll never find another like me
I'm sorry for that too
I still remember forcing free time on my Tuesdays
Only to pick you up 11 miles from mine
It wasn't fate
Fate is hardly passing weekends
Ruining my Sundays
And fate seems more like a tragedy today
You said I was the one
And you placed your eyes on me
Like you'd never take them off
We fought against the odds
By saying goodbye too many times
Staying with you felt like a crime
'Cause I've lost myself along the line
But here I am, I'm calling you out
Screaming your name
Crying for death
This feels like hell
I'd rather die
I have nothing to wish for anymore
Naming someone I'd call my child
Then I realized, it was of us
I've bet my life on this
Now, you're living off my fears
I still remember loving too much
Wishing moments could freeze
In the meantime, I'm trying not to cry
And it's not fate
Fate is killing my own fight
Fate is crushing my own light
And fate seems more like a tragedy
I still remember trying my best
Hoping someday you could change
If you'd see how much I sacrificed
And it's not fate
For fate, it's too much overpriced
I can't take my own advice to let go
And fate seems more like a tragedy to us
Do you remember
Having secrets no one knows
Meeting me behind closed doors?
Do you remember
Leaving me behind the door
Crying on the bathroom floor?
Do you remember
Getting mad for doing more
When i was doing the most?
Do you remember
Never needing to explain
'Cause i'm the one who begged for you stay?
I still remember giving myself
For your own terms
I just realized that now
You made every conclusion
You talked about fate and a soulmate
And it's breaking me apart
I should've known that before too much
I still remember laughing so hard
On your lame puns
For you to twist my words
Every single fight
It wasn't fate
Fate is leaving me so stunned
'Cause fate is killing me inside
And fate seems more like a tragedy
I still remember all about you
But I've forgotten myself too