$kelly the $crewball - Life is just A Curse. Lyrics

Hypnotize

I gave it my all
Just to take a fall
Only time I felt alive was puffing on A raw
There's a lot of bad shit in my mind That I saw
Life is all a game that has a curse
Bitches want my name, all I wanna Do is finish up this verse
I can't do it when they calling me, Leave 'em to the birds
Leave me all alone
Don't call my phone
Do not disturb
Delete all my socials when they pack Me in the hearse
I don't want reminders that I'm Nothing but my f*cking words
Cuz in reality, we're nothing when We in the dirt
I bleed out f*cking lakes just so this Pain can have its hurt
My trauma knows my worth
It made me smoke those bowls until They ash, until they burnt
It's okay to feel this pain
It's okay to feel this way
It's okay to wanna break
It's okay to cut your vein
It's okay there is no shame
Build up my wave, and make my Way
It's all crumbling into pieces
Made me realize there's no easier Escape
So just get f*cked up
Away you fade
Life is just a curse on repeat everyday
Life is just a curse
Life is just a game
Love? It f*cking hurts
Love's another game we're forced to F*cking play
It's all getting worse
Life is so insane
It's all f*cked up
That's the debt I'm forced to pay

Hypnotize

Yo I f*ck up a lot, yo I f*ck up a lot
Violence always solves putting f*ck Boys in they're spot
Nobody seems to see it that way
If I'm tested imma put him in his Place
While you ducking, imma f*ck your Whole day
Yeah I got a lot of anger problems, But I'll be okay
I just need to crash out and go F*cking insane
This life is just a curse
It makes the anger worse
Will the world stop spinning when I'm in the dirt?
I don't think so, so why be so sad?
Is it my fault that I cut when I feel Bad?
Or I'm just wired weird
I got a lot of hate and it's hate I Already had
It's feels I already met
It's feels I already met
Shit can change a child when it's Traumatic events
I hate this f*cking world and I hate The time I spend
I hate the timeline I'm in
I hate this new generation
I'm a f*cking spirit, I'm a ghost
Where will we go?, where we when We die?
Nobody f*cking knows
Just pull the f*cking trigger, stop Your blood flow
But until that days to come just lay Down low
This life is just a curse
Let's let it run around the course of F*cking hurt
All this pain and anger telling me to Go so berserk
Mask on when everybody f*cking Walk
Break shit when nobody talk
How'd I get so low?
Probably from living in a world so Cold
Jesus ain't a savior, god playing jokes
Why's it so f*cked?
You think he'd help me? No
You think he'd answer my prayers
So I don't f*cking blow
I can handle all this shit
Please help
Im rotting in a tomb, or crawling out The f*cking well
I don't give a f*ck what I say, either Way I'll go to hell
This life is just a curse
I'll scream it f*cking loud until you Hear this poets words
I'm bout to say this shit in every Motherf*cking verse
Get used to the truth bitch

(Funny thing is the heads have never Been found)
(Hands, feet, things like that)
(But no heads)
Hypnotize

This life is just a curse
I wanna blow a building down in Pieces, watch it f*cking burn
Wanna cut my f*cking wrist until it Stops the bleeding
Get that shit to squirt
Feeling self destructive
Selfish murderer
I color all my pages black and tie the Book up to a bird
This life is just a curse, this life is Just a curse
Yeah my lifelessness is staring at the F*cking hurt
When I die I bet you'll see my blood As it leaks up out the urn
Flush it away, pour my ashes as one With the dirt
Destined for this pain
I'm forced to play this f*cking game
But I was meant to f*ck the fame
And I was meant to start a wave
Cuz this one is f*cking lame
All you AI motherf*ckers is the same
All you caged motherf*ckers Throwing names
All you boxed motherf*ckers like life Plain
All you rap motherf*ckers need pay
While I'm kicking back and praying For a f*cking reign
All you trapped motherf*ckers need To find your chosen way
This life is just a curse, this life we Live in sim
Go get blood on your shirt
Maybe start a raid of sin
Maybe spill the blood to win
Maybe murder with a f*cking grin
Maybe kill your kin
Anything to break the simulation we Stuck in

Hypnotize

This life is just a curse
I wanna f*cking melt
Steady thinking of all the events that I Felt
Puffed down on that paper, yet it Came with problems
Problems from a hell
Momma never trusting me again cuz My health
Caught a case from momma
Now she knows the only help
I want is from the substances and Blades
She ask me how I'm doing
I say "well"
But I'm f*cked
Can't they tell?
I feel like I am losing all hope
That's why I chose the weed and nic To numb me
And to keep me away from the F*cking rope
Pray the world change, but I pray I Change with it
Hell might be real cuz I swear I'm Stuck in it
Can't do the shit I used to do to Numb the pain
Now I'm finished
Doing normal teen shit that i gotta do
I am f*cking livid
This body's not my home, I'm just Forced to stay and sit in
Just cuz that I am breathing and alive
Don't mean that I am living
This life's a curse
This game is sickening
F*ck the world, f*ck the school and F*ck you bitches
F*ck you robots, f*ck you to the People who be f*cking bitching
I'm just tryna live my life, while all Your bullshit sticking
It's all a curse, the world steady Dissing
I'm all done with all my rants, thank You for shutting the f*ck up and Listening