Surface Video (MV)

I'm so tired of this shit
When will I quit

See on the surface
I feel worth it
But beneath the surface
There's a furnace
And it's heating up
I'm tired of being sick
And sick of being tired
Ugh, I'm stuck
See on the surface
I feel worth it
But beneath the surface
There's a furnace
And it's heating up
I'm tired of being sick
And sick of being tired
Ugh, I'm stuck

I woke up depressed
My life is a mess
I couldn't get dressed
I'm not at my best
I have one request
Let me express
I'm trying to assess
The pain beneath
Is it rooted deep
Or surface deep
The pain beneath
God won't you show me
Who you would have me be
Because I don't feel free
Because I don't feel free

So in this moment
I own it
My mind is a lethal component
Please give me a moment
Wait, hold on
So in this moment
I own it
My mind is a lethal component
Please give me a moment
I am coping
Look I am not joking
I am not broken

See on the surface
I feel worth it
But beneath the surface
There's a furnace
And it's heating up
I'm tired of being sick
And sick of being tired
Ugh, I'm stuck
So on the surface
I feel worth it
But beneath the surface
There's a furnace
And it's heating up
I'm tired of being sick
And sick of being tired
Ugh, I'm stuck

I pick and poke at pain
And I'm quick to speak in vain
Choose when I explain
No words, just blank spaces
Time wasted
In case it's not clear
Don't force it, of course it's
Like throwing white flags
I forfeit
Because I forget
That negative thoughts are horseshit
That negative thoughts are horseshit

So hold on let's bring it back one more, okay
Yeah, yeah, yeah

So in this moment
I own it
My mind is a lethal component
Please give me a moment
I am coping
Look I am not broken
I'm not f*cking broken

See on the surface
I feel worth it
But beneath the surface
There's a furnace
And it's heating up
I'm tired of being sick
And sick of being tired
Ugh, I'm stuck
See on the surface
I feel worth it
But beneath the surface
There's a furnace
And it's heating up
I'm tired of being sick
And sick of being tired
Ugh, I'm stuck

See on the surface
I feel worth it
And in this moment I own it
My mind is a lethal component
Please give me a moment
I am coping

See on the surface
I feel worth it
But beneath the surface
There's a furnace
And it's heating up
I'm tired of being sick
And sick of being tired
Ugh, I'm stuck, yeah