Turning to the drugs again to mend
All my wounds
Mistakes id always make
That still haunt you
In my dreams youre fake
I still want you
Here with me
But now youre forever gone
Grief stricken again
I f*cken miss you
All thats in my head
Wish i could fix you
Laying in my bed
I cry about you
I know youre better up above but i fall too
You're in my dreams again
I cant seem
To, find the end
Youre always stuck in my head
So im stuck coping with the grief again
Mend my wounds with all the drugs i take
Im stuck in place im feeling out of shape
I need you
To tell me i can keep going
Cause without you i feel like overdosing
I need help but
I will not admit it
Talking to nobody cause i, always, feels, so
Distant
So im hiding away
I will not show my pain
Cause im out of place
Ill go where the wind takes me
Lost my dreams when i hit 18
Swear to god i feel like im never seen
Im but an extra cast away to the side
Ive come to terms with the fact that im gonna die alone
Cause my house dosent feel like a home
I feel stuck and im all alone
My songs are a cry for help
Before i take it all out onto myself
Put a blade to my arm again
But im too scared to go full commit i wanna be here
But i think ill go
I think its best if i just give up my hope
All alone
And i feel so hazy
Why the f*ck did god create me?
Scream for help
But theres never a response
Theres only echoes off of the cave walls
Write these songs during panic attacks
When it feels like nobody has my back
I feel, all alone in this world but i know its for the best
I just had to get this off my chest
Turning to the drugs again to mend
All my wounds
Mistakes id always make
That still haunt you
In my dreams youre fake
I still want you
Here with me
But now youre forever gone
Grief stricken again
I f*cken miss you
All thats in my head
Wish i could fix you
Laying in my bed
I cry about you
I know youre better up above but i fall too