Kekoa Siu - Tristan Was Right Lyrics

Told myself I didn't need nobody else
So I forsaked relationships that could've helped me
Grow become fearsome and mentally wealthy
To process and determine what's actually healthy
So when I was twelve I labeled myself an introvert
Cause I don't play sports like them I'm not made for teamwork
Grew Envious of their their friends I felt the label whittle
At that moment I learned I was playing myself with bells and whistles
It's a coincidence that this was when I joined band
Surrounded by lead singers felt like the extra in a boy band
So I faked that I was solid as the rock of Gibraltar
Only to falter on the most basic rhythms and grow smaller
Then I learned I had to be truthful that I'm no scholar
And stay true to that confession way beyond the alter
Cause I can't expect the world to fall in love if I holler
When ain't got my life together and can barely spare a dollar
For I didn't value the power of my decisions
And it kept me surrounded in the devil's depictions
Trapped in the claws of being perpetually deficient
That I lost sight of this fog of my mission
Most people think heaven or hell is the scariest
When Limbo is the one who's got an army of chariots
Because to prostitute your choice means you'll always live vicarious
It Destroys Your concept of self and leaves you Hilarious
Memories of my old youth leader
Who my younger self-thought was an ignorant speaker
When he was growing stronger and saw me growing meeker
And tried to awaken I called him a sleeper
Looking back, I really did the wrong thing
Like going up to do a choir solo only to not sing
Though I was too proud to admit it
Now I realize You were right Tristan