KD Haley - The Calm. Lyrics

I still envision
A better life with no penny pinching
It's really sickening
I've trusted people with ill intentions
Social media
Have you thinking that losers winning
False validation
Know how to fake it wit many mentions
But still I listen
Treating the booth like it's my kitchen
My pen is mightier than the sword
Feel like I'm fencing
My haters wishing
I would lose to the competition
They pessimistic
My presence got them so apprehensive
The moves I'm making
I make them ever so graceful
Food for thought
They emotional
Then become so distasteful
Playing wit ya emotions
It's not the time to be playful
But money don't ever change
It's the only thing that is faithful
Sometimes I sit and reminisce
About the better times
Searching for some peace
That I don't think that I will ever find
Contemplate bout talking bout it
Then I be like never mind
Say you understand this pain I speak
I think Rosetta lying
Ironically
When my brother died I felt dead inside
Was hard to keep myself together
And fighting tryna calm my mind
Life's to short is what they say
And we don't know when it's our time
But knowing he's at peace
The only thing that gives me piece of mind
It's weighing heavy
Like I need to lose some calories
Sometimes I feel like I be in a alternate reality
People where I'm from
Don't really care about mortality
Until it's time to face the reaper
From being a casualty
Things change when you live in purpose
It's a war in the streets
But we don't get thanked does our service
I had to make it out alive
I don't claim to be perfect
But see you niggaz be acting
Yo whole persona rehearsed and I know
But I guess that come wit the territory
Lived a couple Halloween's
I can tell you scary stories
What you know bout facing 20
While fighting for custody
Hustle and praying
Thanking God everyday
That he didn't ignore me
Still tryna get my situation situated
Stay away from people
Who get situations escalated
Maximize reward and tryna minimize
The risk we taking
Step outside yo element
Or risk facing elimination
I'm incredible
But you not even credible
If it ain't bout money
I can't put it on my schedule
Some women will bury you
But some women will care for you
But what's the difference
Between who pretending
And who's there for you
You ain't her only fan
Nigga she got only fans
Why you tryna hold her hand
You think you her only man
All we get is one life
Listen this yo only chance
Gotta pay attention to the signs
Or you'll be lonely man
And ladies listen
Some Niggaz be on that bs
But just like us
Yal selection rarely be the best
Pay attention to the signs you can tell
And stop blaming others for you creating
Your own hell