Was left to my own devices
And now I'm in deep
I'm dreaming of paradises but I'm not asleep
When I met you I was three pussies deep
F*cking hoes like every week
Now my heart still bleeds
Cus I miss you
Didn't know how to convince you not to leave
Let alone To f*ck with me again
Now I see you on instagram
Serving face
100 plus likes
Thirsty ass Niggas in your comments with heart eyed emojis
It bothers me but I try to brush it off
Like I don't give a f*ck
That's big ass lie
Big as my ego and pride
Sometimes I think my pride has a pride
Reason why I won't text you more than twice
Even though I miss you
I continue to lie to myself
But deep down I'm crying out for help
Hoping that you'd notice that I'm hurting and yearning for your love
Attention
Affection
Honestly you's a blessing
Long legs
Dark skin
With a Goddess glow
Beautiful but dangerous like a thorny rose
Was left to my own devices
And now I'm in deep
I'm dreaming of paradises but I'm not asleep
We went out on a nice lil date
Well the food was wack
But the conversation was great
I like how you put your all your feelings and heart on a plate
But I was it gettin late
I Took you home
Kissed you on the sidewalk
PDA
I don't care what anybody say
You put your lips against my lips
I teleported to the heavens
Put my hands around your hips
Like the rings of Saturn
I'm enjoying every second of it
But now I
Gotta leave
I jump in the whip
Smiling from ear to ear
I was sad for a minute
I guess your presence was the cure
Now we ain't talk in a minute
Got me feeling unsure
If you feeling me like I feel you
Steady debating with myself
Should I risk it all
Is it okay if I miss her more
Will I look thirsty if I double text
What if she hurt me if told her how I really felt nah f*ck it I'm backing off
Was left to my own devices
And now I'm in deep
I'm dreaming of paradises but I'm not asleep