Kaylyn - the first time Lyrics

For the first time i don't wanna die
I leave behind the light left in my eyes
That was yesterday now it's a lie
Devils son i'm too young to realise

Lost more leaves then my tree has left
I've felt the embers won't feel the ash left
I cut at the trunk till nothings left
I pray tomorrow i breath my last breath
I been through hell got nothing left
Heavens gates where my family rest
I'm so tired i need some rest
Look down on me but i'm trying my best

I'm trying my
I'm trying my
I'm trying my best
But

For the first time i don't wanna die
I leave behind the light left in my eyes
That was yesterday now it's a lie
Devil called i was too young to realise

I've felt the pain burning my eyes
But i'll still leave the world behind
I've burnt the skin from flames sky high
Scars don't heal but i was too young to realise
The hidden lies
Your diamond eyes
My crystal mind
Different hyphens of a dotted line
Like bullet holes in my glass timeline

Bridges gone from the embers burnt
I wish by now i had've learnt
The pain caused by blades hurt
More then myself it stains your shirt
The blood i bleed is yours to hold
I pray to god i don't get too old
I will take what i am owed
I proudly wear my green and gold
But

For the first time i don't wanna die
I leave behind the light left in my eyes
That was yesterday now it's a lie
Devil called i was too young to realise

I know the pain caused by leaves now gone
Family tree has no limbs of old
Can't dig up dirt in hopes of finding gold
Fingers green from my self hatred's mold