The heart of a sinner don't mean I'm not a Christian
Carry the mother load praying father forgive me
Selfsabotage demise of my wellbeing
In a winner's circle but why am I feeling defeated
Could it be the fact my shoulders ain't big enough
Contrary to giving in yet I'm giving up
Looking beyond my greatness I wasted
True talent by feeling so faithless
I hate this
My last supper with the devil at the dinner table
Rubbing his hands looking at me like I owe a favor
I'll give him payback
Pick up the plate and throw it at his face and say f*ck you ill never get those days back
Had to carry the weight
Had to carry the pressure
Carry expectations so I gotta do better
Had to carry the block
Had to carry my dawgs
Yet divided we stand but together we fall
Had to carry myself
Had to carry my flaws
Had to carry the hate whenever love dissolved
Had to carry emotions when ain't no feelings involved
Had to carry it shit
I had to carry it all
45 pound plates at the ocean bottom
Strapped to my feet don't nobody hear me holler
That's a familiar feeling
In a world of discrimination and leaders acting like coming up is forbidden
We looking out for survival in this rainforest
You see the rage in my tears forever brainstorming
Thinking of a solution to an impossible task
So gotta grind harder no time to relax
A better solution it's better for living
You a sucker for losing but you damned if you did it
Got me stuck in a position of hating that moment
And so confused I don't know if I'm coming or going
Damn
It's a lot of weight man but
You learn to not let it weigh you down
Take a deep breath
Let it breathe man
We can carry it all
Take a deep breath let it breathe man
Trials and tribulations surviving the struggle
I done carried so much had to learn how to juggle
Lot of L's in my path
I took them in stride
Cause where I'm from cries for help getting denied
Had to push through the pressure
Life tragic and scary
Got pain in my shoulder from caskets I carry
Losing loved ones put me through some heavy grit
That's why I easily rise above the petty shit
Wish my mama could've helped my daughter for a second
Wish my pops could've gave my son some life lessons
I try to make up for the love that was taken from em
Life chains try to weigh me down I keep breaking from em
Had to carry the weight
Had to carry the pressure
Carry expectations so I gotta do better
Had to carry the block
Had to carry my dawgs
Yet divided we stand but together we fall
Had to carry myself
Had to carry my flaws
Had to carry the hate whenever love dissolved
Had to carry emotions when ain't no feelings involved
Had to carry it shit
I had to carry it all