Katharine McDonough - Drown (#metoo) Lyrics

I tried to wash off your kisses
I tried to drown out your voice
Tried not to relive the memory
Seems like I don't have a choice
I tried erasing your fingers
I tried to smoke out your scent
Cause I don't want to remember
You made sure I couldn't forget
I tried to wash off your kisses
I scrubbed my neck til' it bled
I've got invisible bruises
That I still feel in my head
I tried erasing your touches
Clean out the inside of me
But I can still find your fingerprints
On every freckle they weren't supposed to see
And I'm drowning in a river of you
Suck me back into the tide
There's nothing I can do
And I can't breathe
But I can't break through
The surface nowhere to be found
I can't determine up or down
No one nearby to hear a sound
Of where you left me to drown
I tried to wash off your kisses
By letting him kiss me too
Thought I could repaint the memory
Cover the remnants of you
I tried erasing your fingers
I cried while he held me down
And while alarm bells rang in my head
I'm growing more and more numb to the sound
While I'm gasping in a river of you
Scarcely beating past the rocks
I'm bruising myself too
And I can't breathe
But I can't break through
The surface nowhere to be found
I can't determine up or down
No one nearby to hear a sound
So I guess I'll just drown
I dream of breaking your face in
Imagine bashing your brain
Won't be found guilty of murder
Just redistributing pain
I'll scream the darkest of anger
The way I couldn't scream then
I'll take back all of my power
Then I'll replay it again and again
And I'll strike back 'gainst the tide of you
Swimming blindly towards a light
There's nothing else to do
And I can't breathe
But I will break through
I won't give up on being found
The scarring only slowed me down
And the world will listen to the sound
Of where you left me to drown