KATERYNA - unfulfilled expectations Lyrics

I haven't written any song this entire year
I didn't like my voice
I didn't like my style
I couldn't stand the way I speak, I think, I walk, I feel
Could I just disappear, or maybe simply die
I carry on myself hopes which were given me
I treasure all the words, remember every smile
I made a statement that no matter what I will succeed
But now I'm sitting here with my head down and my hands up
So please, please, forget what I said
I'm standing here, in fear, no longer myself
Other's hopes and beliefs, which were put on me
Built this house of cards, my pedestal, and I'm standing on, here
I can't stand this anymore
I'm running again, all the thoughts in my head
I feel overwhelmed. I forgot who I am
I'm looking around and nobody's there
So many people but I don't know them
I'm stuck here again, all the thoughts in my head
I'm walking away but I'm still coming back
I've been here before; I know how to fit in
I'm closing my eyes hoping none of this's real
So please, please, forget what I said
I'm standing here, in fear, no longer myself
Other's hopes and beliefs, which were put on me
Built this house of cards, my pedestal, and I'm standing on, here
I can't look into the eyes of those who believe in me
What if in these eyes is hidden something I'm afraid to see
What if these dear eyes are full of utterly regrets
Of fully disappointment, 'cause I failed my promises
My biggest fear is failing those who trust in me the most
What if I fail the expectations will I lose their love
My mind is full of doubts but one thought can't stop chasing me
Stop let the expectations define who you're meant to be
So please, please, forget what I said
I'm standing here, in fear, no longer myself
Other's hopes and beliefs, which were put on me
Built this house of cards, my pedestal, and I'm standing on, here