Kassius the Great - Pain Behind Pride Lyrics

Allow me to bare my soul
Nothing's hidden as far as privacy
The skeletons in my closet, they get in this car and ride with me
You sway peers who f*ck with you to all think that you feel okay
But shame, tears, and trust issues are all stains on your pillowcase
Feelings bottled up, grab a bottle of white or Jack Daniels
But after the liquor wears off, I'm right back in shambles
Shit, hit the J the kush cloud above and nothing gets better
All this shit really do is cloud a judgment
My favorite aunt's been diagnosed with cancer in her breast
And I be too sporadic when I'm answering her texts
Vivid thoughts of this guy on the bus
In a mask that jack my friend
So I went and bought a gun to bust his ass if he come back again
Running up in these hoes with no rain coat
Can't maintain focus, I'd outrun Usain Bolt if we chase a skirt
On that same note my main bro's on cocaine, so he's going insane
Though, I can't do shit, but watch him and my idols in the same boat
Shit
With all this pain I hide
As of late my hearts been at war with my mind
With all this pain I
Hide it all
Hide it all behind pride
You goin ruin you, dawg, you can't make history in no cell
Look in this mirror, I see more in you than you do in yourself
Stink went in when I was three, he still face time and I'm grown
He don't even know what it is to use FaceTime on a iPhone
This life is one big f*cking fight, it's learn to box or end up in one
The rent come, you punch a clock, then they take up a percent from
Every check, so what they say you make ain't really your income
You consider living as an unlawful sinner
Your kids want chicken and waffle dinners
You're scared, you're driven, it's awful in a world
Where you can work eight hours a day
And still stress over your next plate
Meanwhile, some bitch from Cali just made mills all from a sex tape
Now I got family and friends who portray me as selfish
And shit that may be true
But I used to pull air from my lungs to give to them
So they'd be cool
My stomach and back were to meet, they wouldn't feed me baby food
How can they blame me? This how they made me
They stand there stuck, surprised when I pull a knife out my back
Wipe the blood off and I cut the ties
With all this pain I hide
As of late my hearts been at war with my mind
With all this pain I
Hide it all
Hide it all behind pride
Used to be ashamed when mama held the line up
She used so many coupons
There were a few moms in line behind us in a frenzy
Coupled cute blondes
And when we left the store, there wasn't a Bentley or a Yukon
We rode the bus, but what I got older the truth dawned
Mama made every sacrifice there was just to give me Jimmy Neutron toys
I can't remember one night a panini was even lukewarm
Society views you less equal if you own an affordable life
So I dress lethal in these foam Sequoia nikes
To impress people I don't even know or like
This material shit I splurge, I buy
If I live for your commendations
Surely from your aversion I die, consoling so many souls
As I hold so many loads, guess they suppose
I'm this composed soldier who never folds
As their tears soak straight to my shoulder
I'm one of those who everyone vents to bout their lowest of lows
Don't bother walking a mile in my shoes, that ain't even the tough route
Just spend a minute in my head, that'll freak you the f*ck out
With all this pain I hide
As of late my hearts been at war with my mind
With all this pain I
Hide it all
Hide it all behind pride