Kasino Fluorescein - Demons Lyrics

I got an awkward relationship with the mirror
The trauma that I suffered doesn't make it any clearer
Depression drawing nearer
And I can't stop it
Family will do anything to avoid that topic
I look at seeking help for mental health as being weak
I don't believe any of you ever cared for me
I may be wrong but I can't see it
That's what it's like
The sun shines but I can't see it
Though I fight
The sadness I can't beat it
Don't wanna die
Happiness I just wanna see it
Tears from my eyes create rage from a dark place
I don't think a soul is qualified to help my heartache
My heartaches god could you help me
I've been praying so much to where I think it's unhealthy
Society loves to shelf me
Gotta be more to life than obsessions of being wealthy

Use to be my dog
You ain't keep it real with me
Kinda ironic you ain't here to build with me
Eat a meal with me
Game and chill with me
Until you wanna use me you don't even deal with me
You hit me like
Yo T you the realest and I know it now
Should've kept in touch sorry for the way things went down
The way the word friend gets tossed around
Makes me wanna grab the AR and toss some rounds
So I'm the realest and you know this
So what made you think I'd let you f*ck up my focus
F*cking locus
Never was down for me
I remember who was laying on the ground with me
All the guns aiming and goons surrounding me
Since then I stay alone no clowns with me
Forever I'll have issues with trust
I've been through hell so heavens a must
We all got our demons

Wait a minute
Been heavy on my heart for years
Lets talk about it
Just a little bit though

I was a kid wasn't really on no sex shit
But down stairs I guess they was on some next shit
Because how would you know to do
What you did to me if it wasn't done to you
Whoever did it was dead wrong
You were just a young girl
But you was lead wrong
You know our family ties so we all head strong
Ain't no burying secrets unless you dead and gone
Years ago my dad put me on the phone with you
He didn't know that would make me uncomfortable
We'll always be blood so don't think I don't care
Just can't be around y'all the shit feels weird