Karsen YXC - PHONE // ALONE Lyrics

Kinda ashamed to tell you
Even now I still depend my worth on scores I get in tests
Cause people told me it's the only thing you should care about
Now my life's f*cked up how's that

Yeah good kids
They don't ever think or ever behave in ways they've never been told
So when I try to not be someone else people say no one's like me before

I'm narcissistic I'm complacent
For always being so consistent
To stick to myself without thinking what the f*ck it's all for

Funny how I exchange confidence with being stubborn
Never felt appreciated why I'm not belong
Tough on the outside I'm sick of the feeling of inferiority
Can't help it when it just haunt back and take the best of me

Yeah
Can you feel me
Yeah
Where's the faith in myself
All I see is competitions

Never been the biggest fan
But I crave to get acknowledged
Where's my chance though
I'm still not qualified to imagine?

Doubts in my heart
Make me so empty and thin
Voices too loud
Turn a little down for me please

Tryna express myself
I'm not looking for clout
But all I want is to be heard
This struggle is too much

Now I'm sitting in my room
Stucking in my phone
Time goes on
Tryna know what is going on
God knows how much I wish someone can hang me out
Let me have some companies
Be less alone

I don't need no fake Balenciagas
If I can be proud of my style with no logos
My friends proud of me too

I don't have to drown in my own sagas
If I can be proud of my story
My friends won't turn cold for them too

It's midnight
I heard a whisper in my ear
Someday you'll get away from all of those feelings

It's alright
But now all you need to face is tomorrow
Sometimes you're growing up when you're feeling like falling

Doors closed
Why laying on my bed feels so tired
Why I feel like I'm losing all my cool

So I scroll on my phone
Looking at nothing but nothing
Trying my best
In order not to be

Alone
Trying my best in order not to be
Alone
Alone
You're my best friend but I hate you

I know I could've been sad forever
But I always wanna know how to feel better
I know I could have run away from all this
But I always wanna know what is the problem

I trap myself drown can't get over with myself
I don't wanna think too much
So I stuck in my phone
I trap myself drown can't get over with myself
I don't wanna think too much
But I can't stop feeling...

Turn on the TV, that's my annual new year gift
Turn on a lullaby though I'm no more a kid
The things they're interested in I ain't mind a bit
As long as I smile I wouldn't be in embarrassment

Fell in love with a hottie who liked grabbing my ass
He the only one who seemed have the desire
I kinda enjoyed this feeling of playing with fire
Leave me alone!
(as long as I'm not feeling alone)

So cringe
Huh
Wow I'm thinking about all that cringe
When it comes to the times
When I need to speak my mind
I'm always standing there giving no speech

Maybe I'm nervous maybe I'm weak
Maybe I care what people may think
It happens every day in my life
I compromise then I regret
In the end, the only one who gets hurt is me

Felt lucky getting fake smiles
Traveling fake miles
Tied on this ride to nowhere
Can't lose the seatbelt

Just excuse me for being so low
Abuse my pain until my heart gets broke
Shit has never been easy bearable but never calm
Get up 100 times for one more fall
The beautiful sides always do me no harm
So close to me I want a feel
But we're parallel

Like 2 lines drawn on paper without a shared home
The more I want intersections the more that makes me ill

They always be like
Be better
Be better bro
You're not enough you'd better be better

But all I've wanted is to be comfortable
Comfortable
And just feel less

Alone
Trying my best in order not to be
Alone
Alone
You're my best friend but I hate you

I know I could've been sad forever
But I always wanna know how to feel better
I know I could have run away from all this
But I always wanna know what is the problem

I know I could have lock myself in my cage
But I know that's not the way to feel safer
I know I could have just give it all up
But there's always something I can't stop caring of

I stuck in my phone because I'm alone
I stuck in my phone because I'm alone
Kill all this time to feel comfortable
The outside world, safer to connect it with my phone

I care myself
Hold on to myself
Follow whatever I tell myself
But still, can't live without my phone

I care myself
Hold on myself
Still have love for myself
But still can't stop feeling...

(I'm getting tired... so tired)
But still can't stop feeling alone
(Whoever stole my happiness please give it back)

I stuck in my phone because I'm alone
I stuck in my phone because I'm alone
I stuck in my phone because I'm alone
I stuck in my phone because I'm alone
I stuck in my phone because I'm alone
I stuck in my phone because I'm alone