Kars Landman - Trust Lyrics

Sick of thinking 'bout a new beginning
When the way she left me haunts me everyday
Don't wanna go into this
When it's made to fail

How much do I have to push this?
Or do I have to give this up?
There might not be much more in life
Than the chances I'm getting now

I sacrificed my time, my life, my friends
All to help her
But the final sacrifice I had to make
Was let her go

Can I trust my own decisions?
I haven't heard from You eversince
Glimpses of acceptance showing
But from the other side it's just the same

Why do I find myself here?
Where was the rest I had?
I thought I'd live life on my own
Without a problem, I needed no one

And now
A constant need of attention
But the fear of refusal is still here
I need comfort

You gave me rest when I needed
You took my stress away
But this all still haunts me
And there's no sign

The next one that I can't see through
I'm making all the same mistakes
Still so engaging, so enthousiastic
So much that I would love to share
Am I just looking for a replacement?

Trying to move the heaviest rocks
Making this harder than it has to be
Do I have to prove myself here?

Why can't I let this go?
Can't it all just end now?
Or go the other way?
Make this easy or kill it off

Time for trust
Let's give this away now
Can't make it better either way
It's not my decision to make
Although I wish it was