Kars Landman - Beyond the Grave Lyrics

No decision without reasoning
I cannot waste this, it's too long
And all the time that I knew this
I'd never thought of the joy that much

For the times that come my way
I'd knew the reasons I had to give
But a fulfilling life, that made me proud
Was never what I'd had to live

Now I watch it crumble
Look up to the sky way too much
Hoping for miracles to fall my way

I've chosen where I decay
Fallen into the ways of the world
The dilemma haunting me
What's the worth in all this time?

So everytime I feel I f*cked up my whole life
Expect to make a change
To walk away
But where do I go from here?

A future far from stable
Survive for all this time
Too long I saw the light shine
Quite far from the choices I made
I can't wait this out, it's never too late

So if I'll be walking out the gates
Greeted by thunder
No ways into the darkened world I left
It had to hurt

And is the future so bright now?
Or was I always too late?
I am my own life
I am my own death
I am my own mistake

Stuck here to live with on my own
These bright moments I dim myself

Will I find out what's best for me?
No

The selfmade man
That made himself
Faulty foundations
Which he built is life upon

To live and prosper
Under a blackened sky
Is to fail for a lifetime
In a world of comfort
I will never know

On this earth it all is failing
There's no point in resisting
Wanting way too many times
To ascend beyond the grave