Kal Bear - Useless Lyrics

I've been searching
For that vine
Connecting all the little things in life
I've been looking
Through every line
Searching for reasons why I'm even alive

And I keep looking over my shoulder
I notice I'm getting older
And all that I need is closure but
I know that I'll never have it
Maybe I'm too melodramatic
Everything I touch just turns to dust

I need a reason to be happy
Need reason to smile
I need a reason to laugh and to love
I need a reason to feel
Like I'm more than enough
It's so stupid
Cause' I don't need a reason to feel useless

What's the purpose
Of being here?
If we all die, I swear this isn't fair
I get nervous
I get scared
I just wish that there was somebody there

To tell me that this world still loves me
Despite all the ones that hurt me
Tell me that I'll see my thirties but
Even if I lived that long
I don't think I could write a song
To keep me feeling like I did enough

I need a reason to be happy
Need reason to smile
I need a reason to laugh and to love
I need a reason to feel
Like I still did enough
It's so stupid
Cause' I don't need a reason to feel useless

I'm not gonna lie though
I've been suicidal
Tryna hit the high road
But I just wanna die though
I wonder where the time goes
Where I'd be when I'm old
I just wished that time froze
But I always keep my mind closed

I need a reason to be happy
Need reason to smile
I need a reason to laugh and to love
I need a reason to feel
Like I'm more than enough
It's so stupid
Cause' I don't need a reason to feel useless

I need a reason to be happy
Need reason to smile
I need a reason to laugh and to love
I need a reason to feel
Like I'm more than enough
It's so stupid
Cause' I don't need a reason to feel useless