Kal Bear - Ron de Vou Lyrics

Your heart is elusive
You drown me in doubt
My mind is abusive
Cause' I hurt myself
Why is everybody leaving?
Is there something I'm not seeing?
I look up, but don't believe him
Is there even a God?
If so, then explain why my loved one's don't stay
Got too many problems and no one to blame
I'm fighting with my demons
Swear to God I cant even
I'm breathing, but I'm running out of breath

And oh I miss the way love felt
I miss the way I used to love myself
But I'm too damn busy loving everyone else
And it doesn't come cheap
I'm surrounded by greed
You struggle with love
And perfection
But I struggle with me

All I ever wanted was a Ron de Vou
Holding your hand down the avenue
Sit inside a Cafe
Drinking your favourite brew
Is it too much to ask?
Is it too much to lose?
All I ever wanted was to clean the slate
Start over, be happy, so we're both okay
Get a brand new canvas
And fill it with paint
Is it too much to ask?
Are these permanent stains?

You turn all my problems into a competition
You change all my narratives just to fit your definition
How righteous of you
Guess I'll wait in the que
In a line of other boys
Hope you're liking the view
You take our past issues
And you drag them all out
Bringing up every moment
Make it last until now
I want to be petty
Want to fight one more round
Wanna tell you I hate you
But I keep to myself

Oh I miss the way things were
The way you said my name at first
But now everything just f*ckin' hurts
And you don't wanna talk
So I argue with me
Your heart's like a rock
And mine is the sea
We're sinking

All I ever wanted was a Ron de Vou
Holding your hand down the avenue
Sit inside a Cafe
Drinking your favourite brew
Is it too much to ask?
Is it too much to lose?
All I ever wanted was to clean the slate
Start over, be happy, so we're both okay
Get a brand new canvas
And fill it with paint
Is it too much to ask?
Are these permanent stains?

I should stomp on your crown
I should throw you away
I should kill your esteem
And spit on your grave
I should tell you you're stupid
When you're making that face
Acting so innocent
How you're just in my way

But I call you a queen
I ask you to stay
I built up your ego
I dug my own grave
Now I'm looking stupid
I still call you 'Babe'
Fell for your excuses
But you never changed

All I ever wanted was a Ron de Vou
Holding your hand down the avenue
Sit inside a Cafe
Drinking your favourite brew
Is it too much to ask?
Is it too much to lose?
All I ever wanted was to clean the slate
Start over, be happy, so we're both okay
Get a brand new canvas
And fill it with paint
Is it too much to ask?
Do you still see the stains?