Coke in a wine glass beside my bed
Racing impure thoughts can't get out of my head
And I think I was cursed as a child
Was drowning before I hit the first mile
And that's what you say
When things don't go your way
Always placing the blame
But I can't seem to make anyone stay
But I
I can't hide
Not anymore
They're looking from the outside
I won't deny
All the pride
See through my disguise
Oh give me something to believe in
Cause you've got the kind of sin only the innocence of a child could forgive
All because my mother's mother told a bad story
Now I carry the shame
Of all the women before me
Passed down
In my bloodline
Learned how to live on fault lines
So unsure
Have I made it worse?
Feeding the demons placed under my skin
Oh Oh Oh
I stoped breathing
Can you feel it?
Not anymore
Anymore anymore
But I
I can't hide
Not anymore
They're looking from the outside
I won't deny
All the pride
See through my disguise
Coke in a wine glass beside my bed
Racing impure thoughts can't get out of my head