KaeDee - Don't Pretend (feat. Manraaj) Lyrics

What would you say to them?
If you weren't worried about the response?

Please let me be smart, I'm kicking back to recharge and reassess
Find it hard to be my best when everything is seeped
In all this seemingly unneeded stress
When it's you, I really feel it needs address
Difficult, so I need it covered up, the skin is proof
Secrets I've been keeping, need invisible
Keep the essence on the digital
Hide behind a text when otherwise I'm waxing lyrical
And our inner mind's intertwine on minimal
Connect your mind and mine alike
And tap the network on the sly
Inside of Gaia, pray and meditate
To elevate my spirit too
Tryna reach your level and
If I haven't said it fam
It's all because I'm into you
F*ck...
Overthinking every little move
For every setback, personify a different mood
Sick and tired, all this trying
Bring the record through
Drop the needle, f*cking let the tune play
What's a fella do?
Hope and praying for a better groove?
When the heart's beating faster than it ever could?
But you're staying still, and you never move?

When this story ends
You'll be so glad it's done, you will
Oh no, no, no
So girl, let's not pretend
So when it's said and done
You'll know
That I don't want things to change

Caught between the right and wrong
Aware of each
Scared to meet between the light and dark
Wonder what I'm fighting for?
Emotions pulling strings
Got that energy my reasoning just couldn't bring
Murky rationale, it got me burnt and acting out
Feel my character get compromised, turn my back and now
I walk away and wonder if you ponder my decision
Wonder if your target ever locked on my position
Regardless, my decision been the hardest
Romantic hasn't been synonymous with being smartest
Let's not pretend this goes beyond us being friends
Even furthermore beyond that, we struggle making sense
When outsiders try and make attempts, throwing obstacles
Knowing it affect you more than me
So now you see I'm being logical
We're from communities where it's like everybody's hiding
Our deeper fears got us moving silent
Out of fear of what?
Fear of being seen and being chewed out?
Cause they all know your secret and you're thinking what to do now?
Cliche, but you've been burnt before and hurt
From all this lack of trust
Wondering for me, myself and I
Cause no one's backing us?
But what's it got to do with them?
It's only me and you, I'm speaking through my pen
Sometimes, I feel the booth is like my truest friend
For you, I'm taking off the mask and dropping all my pseudonyms
Still I'm moving on, even only for my peace of mind
Wanna keep you in my life
I know you want a piece of mine still
Been maneuvering this minefield
Staying in the dark won't illuminate what light will, so

When this story ends
You'll be so glad it's done, you will
Oh no, no, no
So girl, let's not pretend
So when it's said and done
You'll know
That I don't want things to change
When this story ends
You'll be so glad it's done, you will
Oh no, no, no
So girl, let's not pretend
So when it's said and done
You'll know
That I don't want things to change

So, why do you filter yourself so much?
When you can show up in the world
Why don't you feel like
You can just be yourself?
What's stopping you?