Juan Pablo - Reflection (feat. N8Ball) Lyrics

You see we party for a good time, but what's the reward?
'Cause when the night ends we all going home
See I could have a million friends and I'd still feel alone
'Cause I know ain't none of them gonna care if I'm gone
And for those who claim to be the family
And that last line offended you, cuz you know that
When I'm crying you be drowning in puddles too
I pray your love is revealed before the day I parish, ooh
And I hope you discover how much I cherish you
And to you
Fake friend saying you go ride
But end up pulling away like the tide
I need you to keep your distance
'Cause lately I've been on a mission
And right now you probably think that I'm dissing
So before I finish
I need to make a discretion, please remember me
And all these lonely days that I'm stressing
Look at me and take note of the way that I'm dressing
I bought a Bape jacket and I thought I was flexing
But lately I've been staring at my own reflection
And I just made my own projection
'Cause ever sense I stopped comparing myself to everybody else
I started gaining all this f*cking momentum
And pretty soon it's gonna be hard to count up all of my blessings
Imma make my old money look like it was in a recession
And you go be right there begging with your hands out
I ain't the man now but it's planned out, and you ain't getting shit

Now lately I've been looking in the mirror
I'm reminiscing, tried forgiving, but it ain't getting clearer
Fogging up the glass when I'm running from the past now
This is my reflection, ain't no looking past it
Now lately I've been looking in the mirror
I'm reminiscing, tried forgiving, but it ain't getting clearer
Fogging up the glass when I'm running from the past now
This is my reflection, ain't no looking past it

Give me shit like I ain't there for you
When I ain't ever f*cking hear from you
I remember back in high school, I used to always mothaf*ckin' cheer for you
Back when people used to fear you
Now I ain't f*cking with the clearview
Smokey windows in the bedroom
Pretty colors in the rearview
Now all I see is the red blazer going in the f*cking deep blue
I've been distant from everybody, no wonder they ain't f*cking here too
I'm treating friends like an object
Couple pennies in the pocket, five dollars in the gas tank
Nobody in the cockpit
Broken plates in the cabinet, broken cups in the sink
Broken mirrors all over the house that I smashed 'cause I hate what I see
Extra baggage, extra baggage
Read all a-f*cking-bout it
My life is tragic, they were laughing at it
Now I'm tryna cut 'em out it
I feel like I'm the lonely one
F*ck three friends, I'm the only one
Feel like everybody owe me love
But f*ck it, maybe I should show 'em some

Now lately I've been looking in the mirror
I'm reminiscing, tried forgiving, but it ain't getting clearer
Fogging up the glass when I'm running from the past now
This is my reflection, ain't no looking past it
Now lately I've been looking in the mirror
I'm reminiscing, tried forgiving, but it ain't getting clearer
Fogging up the glass when I'm running from the past now
This is my reflection, ain't no looking past it

Bloody knuckles drippin' on the floor
Reflection of me that had died before
Broken mirrors, tried to find some more
So I don't see that other guy no more
Maybe I should give up on it all and face exactly who I have become
Feeling like I'll never be someone, broken father raised a broken son
It gets hard to look around and see everyone proud to be alive
While I'm just looking down, staring at the ground, try my best to try to hide
I'm everything that I hate, I hate everything that I shouldn't do
I guess I met my fate when I was passed out on the tile
And I couldn't move from those pills that put me right to sleep
All these nightmares keep on fighting me
I look at myself and see everything
But no one's seen this other side of me
So imma break all the mirrors, imma break all the glass
Leave myself with nothing, just pieces of my past

Now lately I've been looking in the mirror
I'm reminiscing, tried forgiving, but it ain't getting clearer
Fogging up the glass when I'm running from the past now
This is my reflection, ain't no looking past it
Now lately I've been looking in the mirror
I'm reminiscing, tried forgiving, but it ain't getting clearer
Fogging up the glass when I'm running from the past now
This is my reflection, ain't no looking past it