JStiiizy - S.H.2 Lyrics

Seven years ago today
My big brother went away
Seven years ago today
My big brother went away
Two hours before when you passed, I saw you last
Asked you to hang even though you had to dash
Music and laughs, shared them like some of the final airs that you grasped
You were a present
But now I only see you in the past
I only see you in the past
I only see you in the past
Said I only see you in the past
When you hit the curb, and flew up in the air, and looked all around, what were your thoughts?
Were you feeling fear?
And you shed a tear?
Could you feel how much that everyone lost?
Did you get your wings?
Or are dreams just dreams?
Hard to get over but I had to defrost
Have you heard me sing?
'Cause you pulled the strings
Afterall, my first song was a way to exhaust
August days don't feel the same
(No no no)
Seven years ago today
My big brother went away
Seven years ago today
Watching YouTube
Showing you new vids
I still go back and watch Jerma and STAR_ like when we were kids
I beat myself up when I lost my Black Ops 1 disc
Prized possession since we unboxed Christmas 2010
Kino Der Toten, round six, thats the best we could do then
When I do easter eggs with my homies, I hope it brings you a grin
Do you remember squeezing into mom's SUV at 5pm?
Going to baseball, Taekwondo, or just to Dad's?
I bear all of our memories cause I gotta spread everything you had
I cannot wear your cleats
Leave 'em to empty
Plus if I tried they would crease
Weight on my shoulders feels hefty
I cannot wear your cleats
Leave 'em to empty
Plus if I tried they would crease
Weight on my shoulders feels hefty
When you left me and our mama, you left us so confused
Bawling, screaming, dropping to the floor, when we got word of news
Imagine my surprise to see dad in a suit
Tree up in his front yard has lost one of its roots
God damn
(God damn)
Seven years weighs on my brain, thought it would get easier
But months go by, it brings me pain and look
I don't want your memory to fade, but it's been so long
I can't help it if it frays
I don't think my life would be going this way
If you just stay home, if you just stay safe (uh)
I don't think my life would be going this way
If you just stay home, if you just stay safe (woah)
I'm not blaming, but it's really plain to see
We would never came to Texas, I could never make no beats
I'm not blaming, but it's really plain to see
We would never came to Texas, I could never make no beats
I cannot wear your cleats
Leave 'em to empty
Plus if I tried they would crease
Weight on my shoulders feels hefty
I cannot wear your cleats
Leave 'em to empty
Plus if I tried they would crease
Weight on my shoulders feels hefty
You were 19 and you had way too much fun
Xanax bars you swallowed, living like you on the run
Panic 'tacks came constant habits
Deploying all of my tactics
Just to stay sane
On my own I still find balance
I don't know, but God is real
But I'll see you again
That's the deal
Rainy days and freezing nights
I still have you on my mind
Whenever I feel alone
I know that, I know that, I know that, I know that
This won't be goodbye!
This won't be goodbye!