J.Paperz - Wishful Thinking Lyrics

Lately I've been thinkin bout my ex
Thinkin bout the single life
I'm always f*ckin' stressed
Cheated on me and ya hit the next
Prolly woulda came at my neck
You know them spanish chicks

Always down to f*ck
No luck quick nut
Pussy was the best i ever f*ckin' touched
Quick bust

Had me feelin rusty everytime we f*cked

I said this never happen
Couldn't last to make her cum

I've been feelin crazy lately yea i'm feelin numb

Life is gettin tirin
Feelin like chewed gum

Spit me out like im used
Kick me out like a bum

Hit me like a f*ckin juul
Knocked down like the scum

Ive been tryin to get bread
Pickin all these crumbs

I was lookin for commitment
She was lookin for some fun

I was tryna work it out
But She said i aint the one

Since then i quit relationships
Tryna coppa gun

This life isnt best for me
I need a plan to run

Been contemplatin Suicide
24 i'm young

I'll play lifes game til either 50 51
Maybe 60 61

Ive had good times
And i know that im loved

But what good is life
If your constantly alone

Ive been goin hard
But i still missed my zone

I never hit my friends
Why the f*ck im always home

I bought a used car
Got a new f*ckin phone

I aint hit nobody up
I Been gone for too long

Why'd i stay away from love
Bitches always did me wrong

1A was pretty bad
But the dicky wasnt strong

Her pussy too tight
Didn't say my dicky small

She said she need a man
I guess i wasnt one at all

My self esteem
Has reached
My all time low
F*ck my posed to grow
Feelin like i cant do shows
My motivation reach a low
Anxiety is kickin
Feelin demon creepin
Watch my body die
Heart stops beatin
Wouldnt talk it
Less i see it
Scared to sleep
When i'm dreamin
When i'm dreamin
Feel the presence
Feel it breathin
On my shoulder
Down my neck
Hold me down
He be screamin

Needa get you life together
In the end ima reap it

I wake up with
My door wide open
I know i left it closed
I've been sensin omens

I got bad luck
And I travel with some curses

Ever since baby moms
Feelin numb
As it worsens

My chest is gettin tighter
It aint never gonna open

Up to any bitch
In the end it isnt worth it

I cant feel my energy
I'm tryna gain a purpose

I feel you here
I feel you watching me

I know your there
Your presence is taunting me

I bet you don't care
What more you want from me

I feel them stares
Tell me whats wrong with me