Joshua Allen - Let It All Lyrics

Walk through the door a kiss on the cheek
Family tradition this day of the week
Stick to the side lines
Play by the guide lines
Keep up a smile whatever the cost
They'll never know all the things that you lost
To not be the reason
The shit hit the ceiling
You look for a sign
Something to tell you this wasn't
Exactly as bad as you thought
The ones you let close
Who loved you the most
Won't believe that you
Are who you say that you are
You carry the load till you start to implode
But do it at home no one wants to see that
Plug up the holes
And band-aid your soul
And find some way
To let it all out
He says he misses the brother he had
The one with the bible who talked just like dad
But he's got it twisted
That guy never existed
And he likes to tell me I live in the shadows
The years spent with him were the darkest I've had though
So I'll stick to my light
I've never seen his shine
You look for a sign
Something to tell you this wasn't
Exactly as bad as you thought
The ones you let close
Who loved you the most
Won't believe that you
Are who you say that you are
You carry the load till you start to implode
But do it at home no one wants to see that
Plug up the holes
And band-aid your soul
And find some way
To let it all out
All those times that you stayed
When you knew you could run
While you still had enough to build something new from
And you spent your whole youth
Putting on strangers' shoes
Cause you thought you could change the way people would view
The ones who hurt you now
You search for a sign
Something to tell you this wasn't
Exactly as bad as you thought
The ones you let close
Who loved you the most
Won't believe that you
Are who you say that you are
You carry the load till you start to implode
But do it at home you can't let them see that
Plug up the holes
Band-aid your soul
Find some way
To let it all out