Josh Lovelace - Praying Wrong Lyrics

I am a stubborn man
I am a stubborn man who never seemed to understand
That I am no exception to the fall
Everybody's looking for redemption from it all
I was a preachers kid
I was a preachers kid who got away with everything
Didn't want to taint my family name
So I stayed quiet in the dark with secrets boiling up my guilty veins

I'm trying to figure out the reason for all my doubt
There's nowhere to point the blame
This blood on my hands is weathered and stained
I didn't know who I was, barely know who I am
Trying to pick up the pieces that fell through my hands
Did I walk away for too long or am I just praying wrong?

I'm feeling vertigo
Just tumbling through the air with nowhere safe to go
Reaching for the whisky for relief
Cause my head won't let my heart trust in a thing that I can't see
Will the anchor stay
As the ship gets tossed around by all the wind and waves
Some days I feel I'm floating out to sea
But I'm hanging on to what I hope is true to hold me now and carry me

When everything is said and done I just want to be the one
Who's swimming in an ocean of peace
Open skies and open mind the questions seem to all subside
There's space here in my heart for it to beat
These pills aren't needed anymore, yeah they've been buried on the shore
I'm free from my depression and my grief
There's nothing here to hold me down all that was lost has now been found
I'm safe and sound, secure and finally free.
I'm free, I'm free"