Young and free
Moving pictures on a TV screen
Reminiscing bout the days it seemed
Like we were safe at home
But something happened to the way I laugh
No longer smiling for the photograph
Get overwhelmed and then my heart gets sad
Cause I feel all alone
Fighting the fear inside my head but they don't know
I'm not the best version of myself right now
Been locked up like a criminal that can't get out
Wanna find a new beginning but I don't know how
I'm not the best version of myself right now
No, I'm not the best version of myself right now
Been waiting for the rain but I'm in a drought
I know one day I'll get better and I'll make you proud
I'm not the best version of myself right now
Chasing highs to do whatever makes me feel alive
I'm burning up the night but I can't hide from my anxiety
It's coming at me like a speeding car trying to break what's left of my broken heart
It's a chain reaction of the guilt and scars
That nobody sees
I know the night is at its darkest before the dawn
Even when it's hard to see
There is hope ahead of me
Step by step and day by day
I know it will be okay"