JOP - NOTE TO SELF Lyrics

Don't be surprised when you see a clown at a circus
Open your eyes look around, that's how you learn shit
Stop reminiscing on the past days, just let it be
Manifest your future, with all of your dreams
A little something I would say to myself
I was struggling back then, I know I needed my help
Yeah I'm proud of the progress that I made today
I wanna thank old me for paving the way
Some days I've been thinkin' bout just givin' up
Ego-filled, seems like I'm not enough
Then I look back at where I was last year
That version of me would've been in tears
What I'm sayin', you should never give the f*ck up
Don't give the time when they've been sayin' you was lucked up
Cause I ain't seein' nothin' lucky about you
I'ma work up in silence and they gon' wonder how I got up
No, I won't give out no handouts
I've dated pretty women, always leavin' them fanned out
I've dealt with anger issues, now it's harder to crash out
And booted out the people that would always just latch out on me
Yeah, my life is gettin' crazy
Yeah, I ain't let nobody else change me
Yeah, even on the days that I'm hurtin
Yeah, I never let another woman phase me
Don't be surprised when you see a clown at a circus
Open your eyes, look around, that's how you learn shit
Stop reminiscing on the past days, just let it be
Manifest your future, with all of your dreams
A little something I would say to myself
I was strugglin' back then, I know I needed my help
Yeah, I'm proud of the progress I've made today
I wanna thank old me for paving the way
Used to wake up with you in the morning
Otherwise, I'm all alone and mourning
I've been gettin' high, I can't stand it
I can't control my thoughts when I'm smokin
No, I ain't really much of a drinker
I've been gettin' drunk off a sip
I got Aperol Spritz in my cup
But it's not my fault, you're the reason, no
Like I said, I won't let any of that get on my nerves
But it's obvious I care, you can tell that it hurts me
Listen to my own advice, don't think about the past
But it's hard to stay in present moment
Life is movin' fast for me
Yeah, my life is gettin' crazy
Yeah, I ain't let nobody else change me
Yeah, even on the days that I'm hurtin
Yeah, I never let another woman phase me
Don't be surprised when you see a clown at a circus
Open your eyes, look around, that's how you learn shit
Stop reminiscing on the past days, just let it be
Manifest your future with all of your dreams
A little somethin' I would say to myself
I was strugglin' back then, I know I needed my help
Yeah I'm proud of the progress that I made today
I wanna thank old me for paving the way
Don't be surprised when you see a clown at a circus
Open your eyes, look around, that's how you learn shit
Stop reminiscing on the past days, just let it be
Manifest your future with all of your dreams
A little somethin' I would say to myself
I was strugglin' back then, I know I needed my help
Yeah I'm proud of the progress that I made today
I wanna thank old me for paving the way
I wanna thank old me for paving the way