Jones - Identity Crisis Lyrics

Quiet for a minute outta nowhere something clicked in me
Heard the beat something happened don't know what It did to me
I don't think y'all really understand what this is to me
I don't think y'all really understand what I been doing
Dont dare call me average I'm not that
Year ago couldn't even get a call back
I'm not bragging, I'm not saying that I'm all that
I'm saying that these hits I'm making finally making contact
TIme for me to come out I been hiding in the shadows
Wait is over, time for me to get back to what matters
I been Diving in the deep end no more playing in the shallows
Put out "Where I'm Going", ready for another chapter
I'm back now, crack down on these wack clowns
Quit it that's a wrap now, spit it till I pass out
Kill another track pow,
Came from the bottom it's a problem if you thinking that I'm ever going back now
No cap beat a track till my lungs sore
Game didn't want me so I snuck in through the back door
Give it all I got but everybody always wants more
That's really what they wanting imma give you em what they asked for
Name changed still the same brain out the cage they can't contain or restrain me
Rapping insane I came for the game and it's too late
When I hit the stage, hit the haters with the melee
Play nice if you fakes step in my space
I can guarantee that you bouta have a bad day
Don't like what I'm saying better pack it up and vacate
Crazy if you thinking I not hearing what these trolls say
Heard a couple tracks wow, we he rapping slow now?
Probably he toned down, why he sound emo now?
Bet he couldn't keep up with the competition, oh well
Heard he tried to make it and I guess it didn't work out
Still Frustrated still Fired Up
Said I want The Crown that's not a bluff
Said you'll run up on me all acting tough
Well I'm right here, when you showing up?
In a culture so anti offensive
Internet trolls don't think twice about dissing
Say that you suck and they'll tell you to end it
But if you respond then they'll cry they're offended,
You kidding? when will we come to our senses
Quit being hateful and spreading that venom
My skins getting thicker, but they should consider
That I don't just turn the tables, i'mma flip em
Went from an empty to house to some packed crowds
Shows where no one came to getting sold out
In my zone now, got their phones out
Never let up cuz I'll never let the fans down
Don't do this for nothing, Confront ya'll who fronting
Egos got your heads swelling up like concussions
Save all your judgment that's end of discussion
Don't do what I do, Making moves ,lets discuss it
I write and record and do my own production
Mix for so long think my eardrums are busted
Make all my merch and I wear it in public
Engage with my fans on socials and love it
Book all my shows and I drive 'cross the country
Stay after talk to the fans every one of em
Give this my tears and sweat and my blood
That's why I'm getting paid and why you getting nothing
Warn the game make way cuz its its dooms day
You don't like the truth I don't wanna hear what you say
I get on the mic fakes bolt like they Usain
Claiming you the realest get exposed like a tupee
I'm just doing me please don't copy my persona
I'm just tryna spread this and go viral no Corona
Go global like a pandemic and go ham with, know I am different
Know its fire if my hands in it
Tracks full of mannequins bout to get bodied
Y'all better quit play cuz this aint a hobby
Tryna create in a crowd full of copies
My bars in the penthouse and yours in the lobby
Is it true that I got some loose screws, yeah probably
That's who I am I'm not changing so sorry
Raps in my blood and the drums are my heartbeat
I feel like I've gotten off topic, where were we?
Last album I took you inside
Went for a journey inside of my mind
Warned you I didn't know what you might find
Problem is neither did I (Ha) oh my oh my
I shined a light on my demons and Hell I've been through in my life
But something was hiding, now I gotta find it
So strap in its time to get back on the ride
I know I should calm down and not be so sensitive
Probably ease up, don't be so intense with it
I admit sometimes I feel like a hypocrite
Free from addiction but sometimes I reminisce
Left him in prison but sometimes I miss him
Sometimes I think maybe one day I'll visit
See how he's doing, no stop wait a minute
Man what am I saying don't fall for his tricks again
Ten years of my life locked inside of that prison
Now that I'm out of everything's lookin different
At home but I feel like I'm visiting
Inside in a world I'm relearning to live in
No more double vision I can see it all clearly
Only thing that's blurry is discovering the real me
Learning how to cope with the problems I was concealing
Learning to adapt to pressure that I been feeling
Put down the bottle got sober thought that was game over
Found out there's damage that you can't paint over
Found out There's stains you just can't cover
Found out getting' sober don't mean the pains over
Relapse tryna flirt with me
Apologizing to me saying he's concerned for me
Shut him out, but he's stalking, feel him circling
Tryna jump me take me back and keep on hurting me (NO)
Stepped towards acceptance accepted the problem that I needed help with
Regret that it took so long to get the message
Rejected concerns thought I was the exception
Quit when I want, irresponsibly reckless
Beating addiction was step one but what's coming second
Didn't expect to emerge from the wreckage and find all my issues
Just waiting there right where I left em
You can run but you can't hide, in time
You gon' have to deal with what you fighting on the inside
We try to deny it put off pretend we're alright
Eventually you'll slip and miss when you forget the trip wire
Trauma aint a job that you can quit it doesn't retire
Can't put it on the shelf and hope that one day it'll expire
Flee the scene, it'll catch up to you, never gets tired
I'm at war with myself I need a ceasefire
This aint for judgement we all got our vices
Hide em away don't no one to find em
People who act they're perfect are lying
Real you is when you're alone in the silence
Not sure where I'm going I guess I'll keep driving
Hope I don't overheat, exceed my mileage
Old or the new me I haven't decided
I feel divided, Identity Crisis