Legs crossed
Writing you these letters
Deliberate if I'm an aider or abettor
My trash become a stack of rough drafts
As I sit on my ass and crash
Again and again
The taller it gets
The more that I miss
The ignorant bliss
No culpability
And now they asking me
Why was I absent
How's life as a has-been
Man I really wish I knew
Just what the f*ck happened
But guess what
Facade still stay laughing
Facade still stay laughing
And now I'm the captain
Fully controlled
And contrived with my flow
Hits in my drive
It's unbelievable
They hitting me up
But my shit is on hold
Since you walked out that door
I kept the expression in place
Plastered on my face
As I get f*cked for the third or fourth time today
Drunken words
Like a shovel
Digging a ditch
Will is weak
It's a struggle
Hit me over the head
When I start to wander
The search never ends
When you're looking for your honor
And you know me
I'm looking for my honor (honor)
Don't know where to start the search
But I go on and on
And I'm wondering
What to do with my mistakes
Can I cash them in
And finally f*cking change my fate
It doesn't work that way
So keep hiding your shame
Let them forget my name
Til memory fades away
And I wished that's how it worked
Don't know what to do now
Wishing you'd close your eyes
When you see me
Turn into a fool right quick
Let the feeling stick
And wrestle me to the floor
Beat my face in til
I can't feel nothing no more
And I don't wanna be sore
But it's better than this
My own worst enemy
You know it's gotta be Lit
And I know I'm the shit
At least when I ask myself
Take a poll and get drunk
Statistics right off the shelf
Cause no one knows my own me
Much better than you
So I thought I'd knock a bottle back
And maybe rattle off a few Q's
Like step one
Or maybe question two
Who the f*ck am I
And when did this shit
Turn into an interview
So now I'm walking out
Strut some bullshit
Acting like I don't feel no doubt
Walking confident
Cause I know just what I'm about
Knowing full well
My inhibitions got me devout
And you know me
I'm not looking for no doubt
Knowing full well
Inhibitions make me devout
My addictions snapping whips
Right into my face
Gonna find the means
To drive the will
To change my fate
It just might work that way
If I can keep my faith
Can I keep holding on
Even when they
Tear me down
And lead me wrong
I don't wanna be right
Long as I hold on
Keep my soul head strong
Eyes pointed straight
Future won't be long
Long as you can wait
Wait like five minutes while I exacerbate
The ones who masturbate
Egos of the elite and baked
And fake woke heads
Wonder where the Pez heads of men went
Under the covers
Where the f*ck is your mother
So I can take the ripped off mouth of fate
And rub it on the lips
Of the ones who escaped
Mommy dearest won't save you right now
You've proven her right
And here comes the crowd
Scornful and loving
Everyone's hugging
I don't know why
It isn't so comforting for me
Feeling left out
But we have no doubt
To change the fate of men
Is worth the painful fee