John Crow - Night Terrors Lyrics

It's a lack of self loving that has got me to this point
Yeah that's right, you bring it up but I don't like that talking point so I dodge it
Like yeah so I been tryna finesse this project
My mind said, I'm trippin off the simple things now
And you don't have a choice but to wear me as a big crown
Make you feel sick now
You just took the last rip, how the hell you gonna sleep now?
I start to sweat... if I could stay awake and never think about hitting my bed I'd really be set
I'd almost rather get no sleep than get some shitty sleep
I write while everybody sleeps these stupid f*cking pipe dreams
All this feeling shitty's got me really f*cking stressed out
I feel it physically feel like my heart could blow my chest out
Of course my art would go and choose to flow the best now
The moment that my arch dips and I can feel my legs doubt
My body feels like jello and my head could be detached
I just feel like shit is not really commuting in my back
My community is trash I need to get back
I need to buy my friends some lunch and really catch up

But I'm not really tryna see you now
Cause as of lately I been stressing out
Having episodes when will the season end
I hope the summer come and bring the seasoning
Cause I been tryna look up and see the evening end

I been seeing black and white my vision was in vintage
Invented the name but i wont stop till they see
Im me
I love bein here in the moment
Wish I could control it
But f*ck I need to own it

Im blind i cannot see
Partially its because the particle beams
Right beside me
You ever cross ya streams?
When im feelin free
I sit here glistening
Like a star
Not too far
But im a couple thousand light years away
Is this already the end of my days?
I wish I was getting paid
Instead I sit with a couple cents inside my bank
I remember when I used to be the shark inside the fish tank
Really but really never change your ways for no niggas
Dont forget about the bitches
But forget about the bitches
You get me?
Focus on your self
Know your worth
Perfect your strength
Feel almighty in a way
Build a temple in a day
I broke rome
Lost my home
Rubbed the paint over my face
My scars are my message
Please just leave a message
After you hear the tone
Go catch this bone when i throw it
Dont choke

But I'm not really tryna see you now
Cause as of lately I been stressing out
Having episodes when will the season end
I hope the summer come and bring the seasoning
Cause I been tryna look up and see the evening end