Joey Madeline - october Lyrics

We weren't lovers
But we weren't friends
So I feel ashamed
That you messed with my head this bad
Wonder if people think that it's sad
It haunts me to think
That I'll spend more time missing you
Than I spent with you
I know it's an issue
'Cause days, weeks, and months pass
But I stopped keeping track
Because
October is over
And I'm still a mess
In December, remembering
What we confessed
And I know you think that this is for the best
But in my head
I'm still stuck in October
I'm terrified that years will go by
And someone will mention your name
And I'll laugh in a way
That seems over it
But I still won't have found someone like you yet
So I'll settle for men with nice faces
Who make me smile sometimes
Open doors, get the punchline, and I'll try
Forgetting the fact that nobody has
Made me feel like you did back in
October is over
And I'm still a mess
In December, remembering
What we confessed
And I know you think that this is for the best
But in my head
I'm still stuck in October
My water's running red
And I'm trying to forget
To flush it out until it's clear
And I keep hearing that time heals
But I want to be painted and tainted by you
Yeah, I want proof
That we ever existed
Even if you're indifferent
October is over
I'll never get over
October is over
I'll never get over you