I miss it most in the colder months
When I can notice the space in my double bed
It's been a while, I should probably downsize now
I call you up in my head
The scenario plays out exactly how I wanted
You're smiling on the other end
But you're not and I want to believe
But it's not helping me, no
You were the warmth inside my blood that kept the death away
The force around the Earth that stops the Sun from burning us
The promise of a softer landing after a fall
Forever the wiser, I walk with your ghost
I buried you long ago and down there deep you'll decompose
Oh under the words that I chiseled into your headstone
Oh never again
Burning under your fire, all was dark in my head
With blind eyes I found the knife in my hand
You were the warmth inside my blood that kept the death away
The force around the Earth that stops the Sun from burning us
The promise of a softer landing after a fall, a fall
And I don't know what's worse
The years of hurt? Convinced of what
Would have been, could have been, had I been not making it hard
It's the love and the loss, oh
You were the warmth inside my blood that kept the death away
The force around the Earth that stops the Sun from burning us
The promise of a softer landing after a fall, fall