Jo - three of spades Lyrics

I'm not afraid of starting over again
I'm just in pain at the thought of forgetting your name
I tried to find a reason to your thinking
And you tried, denied, to justify your leaving
I tried to find the thoughts that you've been keeping
And you tried, denied, that your heart was ever beating
I never thought to think that we had choices
Always thought those were just white noises
Just because the rain had stopped today doesn't mean the clouds won't be gray
You were my three of spades
Night can only fade to gray
Three of spades
Three of spades
Two people can make wrong choices
Sit and watch them wash away
Just know you're still in my head
And you'll still be my favorite day
Hearts control so much more than our minds
Eyes see nothing, we're all just living blind
You were my three of spades
Night can only fade to gray
Three of spades
Three of spades
Yeah, no that makes sense, you mean it?
Whatever, I never believed it anyways
So now the time has come and passed and we have all lived
You were my first, and I'll hope to be your last
You were my three of spades
Night can only fade to gray
You were my three of spades
You were my three of spades