Jimmy Stanley - Ant in a Beehive Lyrics

I never wanna go back
It's not the commotion but the sense that I'm trapped
The f*cking sirens and the debit card taps of covenant society
Now tell me why I should want something like that
When my attitude for showing my face already isn't that great
I wanna retreat but I'm thrown on a stage where I spill all my guts like some cuck in a play
And I wanna be real without saying too much but I can't be myself and not show you my cuts
I wanna be lost and not answer to friends 'cuz not every month is a means to an end
I don't have a clue to what grounds me right now and if I'm in this city I'll never find out
I'm an ant in commute with the bees on their way to the hive
And I don't know why I thought I could fly
Or that there'd be a spot waiting just for me
Warm inside
I just want clear cut beginnings and ends
Mercy from caring if they get what I meant
Or not
A button to press when it's all too much
Too much for me to handle
To go extinct at once like blowing out
Blowing out a candle
But no we face it
Face it head on
Feel it fear it and put it in a song
Like if your browsing history was a public page
But it's worse 'cuz this is
This is what I think
When my attitude for showing my face already isn't that great
And I wanna retreat but I'm thrown on a stage where I spill all my guts like some cuck in a play
And I wanna be real without saying too much but I can't be myself without showing my cuts
I wanna be lost and not answer to friends 'cuz not every month is a means to an end
I don't have a clue to what grounds me right now but if I'm in this city I'll never find out
I'm an ant in commute with the bees on their way to the hive
And I don't know why I thought I could fly
Or that there'd be a spot waiting just for me
Warm inside