Jesse Wildman - Never Lose You Lyrics

I wish I wasn't in my head so low
I wish I wasn't in my own way
Cause if I really learned to let you go
I would never lose you
I wish I wasn't in my head so low
I wish I wasn't in my own way
Cause if I really learned to let you go
I would never lose you
Yeah, always wishing I was in the sky
Looking down, feeling fly
But how can I touch it if I can only go there after I die
I don't think I have to die for me to feel the afterlife
Losing you to suicide got me feeling half alive
Only living half a life yeah
Every time I think about you I just hear the cries
That you never made, chances that you never gave
I could've saved you, I should've saved you
You didn't open up, because you thought that I would hate you
I know I ain't you, but you know that ain't true
You didn't put your faith in me and that is painful
Cause every time I needed you I knew that you had came through
So how's it different, huh? I was there for you, and I would've listened
But I guess it doesn't make a difference, if I try to be indifferent
Agh, well I can't be, how can I go on when I'm feeling so unhappy, damn
I wish I wasn't in my head so low
I wish I wasn't in my own way
Cause if I really learned to let you go
I would never lose you
I wish I wasn't in my head so low
I wish I wasn't in my own way
Cause if I really learned to let you go
I would never lose you
All this time has past but the pain forever lasts
I can not relax, try to move on then relapse
Wish that you were back life would be on track
But my thoughts are turning black, and I think I'm gonna crack man, yeah
Why'd you do it? huh
Why'd you choose it? huh
Say you did it for yourself, but now I'm left with no one else
And all I have is in the music, uh
And the bottle
I tried to drown my sorrow
Tonight I might forget but I'll remember it tomorrow, damn
Sitting in my car thinking I should hit the throttle
Grab another bottle, try to find you at the bottom
It's a problem, yeah I admit I got a problem
But nobody has the answer rather keep it to myself than go anonymous
I'd rather hobble barely standing, in self-consciousness
Don't think you understand how you affected my self confidence
I wish I could escape it but these thoughts are feeling bottomless, damn
I wish I wasn't in my head so low
I wish I wasn't in my own way
'Cause if I really learned to let you go
I would never lose you
I wish I wasn't in my head so low
I wish I wasn't in my own way
'Cause if I really learned to let you go
I would never lose you