Jesse Blaze - Castle (feat. Kris Dalene) Lyrics

She smiles at me through memories, her reflection fades to black
I remember in my dreams at night, the ones I can't get back
If there's a god I want to punch him. If there's a hell I'm there
I thought I made a good husband, but apparently it's not my cross to bear

I never wanted death, never wanted hate, never wanted war, but here it goes again
I only wanted life, wanted love. Doesn't matter now, I'll never see them again

Voices float in air then freeze, what they say I'm never sure
The little things that made them smile, wish that I'd have had more
The things they did, I sure miss 'em, they made one hell of a pair
I thought I made a good father, but apparently it's not my cross to bear

I never wanted death, never wanted hate, never wanted war, here it goes again
I only wanted life, wanted love. Wanted peace

It wasn't always like this; I used to smile most days
I had love in my heart, but they took that away
It wasn't always like this, it wasn't always like
It wasn't always like this, it wasn't always like
It wasn't always like this, it wasn't always like this
It wasn't always like this

Now, this is the part I don't understand

The shots ring out in songs like these, but my job is never done
Yeah, they ask for life, and a second chance, but I never got to have one
If there's an end I can't see it. I try to look, but it's not there
I know I made a good soldier, 'cause apparently that's my cross to bear
That's my cross to bear, that's my cross to bear

I wanted death, I wanted hate, I wanted war, so here it goes again
I never wanted life, wanted love, wanted peace

It wasn't always like this; somehow I lost my way
When those bullets struck true and they blew me away
It wasn't always like this, it wasn't always like
It wasn't always like this, it wasn't always like
It wasn't always like this, it wasn't always like this
It wasn't always like this

Those bullets; my nightmares, those people; are my family
Your lives; my anger. Do it for them, I do it for me

Do it for them. F*ck it, I do it for me

Those bullets; my nightmares, those people; are my family
Your lives; my anger. Do it for them, I do it for me

For me! For me