J-Easy - Self Medicate Lyrics

You know it Seems like i just up and quit
Nah I just had to get my head right
You know if you don't give a f*ck about what's being said in this song
I don't care I just got to get this shit off my chest
So here we go
Back at the shit again
Im coming into this with a different mind set
Not looking to be anyones friend
F*ck off my head isnt right and i know that it ain't screwed on tight
Everyone thought last time was the end
Ended with the dangerous EP then no one saw me
Had alot of shit happen in just a few years
Crazy I know that i sheded some tears
Hoping i can hide it so no one hears
In July Lost a beloved angel that was painful
Something i always feared in this life time
Still born shit still hurts feels like four steel swords ramming into my f*cking spinal cord
Running into problems feeling like life or death
With My head racing, these thoughts, i got something to confess
Like putting a gun to my head and fill it with lead
Somehow my wife caught it
Picked my self back up and fought it
Hit life with an upper cut
Fighting my way back to the top
Now im back in my spot
Justins back at it again so go ahead and pull up your chairs
You got shit to say, i dont care
Until you show up sayin that shit to my face
Sit your ass down and just hop off my case
Beat your ass to a pulp i won't leave no trace
If thats what you want just come to my place
My goal thru my music is to let people know there is someone that can relate to them
Not for the fame and money
I get a paycheck for serving this country with or without this music
Could it be youre mad that you ain't puttin out twice the effort
With the shit you do I believe death would be first
I have a purpose here on earth
Dont think ive found it yet
My life blacking out like a vignette
God throwing hardshits at me like a bet
Setting me up for failure i wonder if hes even there
Stare for hours and get nothing back
I always run back to my music
I apologize for the confusion
Don't be mad at me I'm only human
Told you back in 2015 I had Queit Rage
Now my lid is poped and everything has changed
The anger inside is getting louder and louder
Had to look up to the sky for the higher power
With all the pills from the va that I'm taking
I had to turn to self medicating
Not the kind that Sedating
Raining down on me is stress
Its building so much on my shoulders i dont get any rest
I try my best so i introduce you into my life as a guest
My heart can't express how I'm feeling right now
With this life I know it feels like a test
With the anger that's manifested inside me
The only thing I want for me is to be is set free
Just back off and let me be
Be
Damn
Just let me be
Don't f*ck with me that's fine that's cool
Just let me be me
This right here self medicating
2019
And if you got anything to say
Just hit me up