Jcam - Cryin' Out for Help Lyrics

I've been, I been strugglin' for a long time
And I just, I just
Wanna be okay, you know?

Look in the mirror see my reflection
It's depression
I'm a mess and it's affectin'
My perception
Thoughts rear-endin'
I just guess I'm not myself and
I do not know how to end this

Look at my life what am I left with
Nothin' much I am not blessed
Talk to God like can't you mend this
I'm offended
Someone send me
Somethin' to help me

Please!
God I'm cryin' out for help
I'm on my knees
God I'm living in a hell
Can't you see
I can't do this very well
I need to breathe
I am way to overwhelmed
Set me free

Why am I unhappy?
Why do I feel stuck?
I just wanna be me
Is that to much to ask for?
I got too many questions
I need some answers

How come, I'm cryin' all the time
How come, I tell people I'm doin' fine
Why do, I feel like I stepped over the line
Why do, I feel like my life isn't mine

I'm not me
I'm not happy
I'm not positive
I'm no longer optimistic
God I gotta stop this is it, too late?
I feel like I have reached my limit
I don't wanna keep on livin'
All of my systems are failin'
I can't go nowhere from here man

Depression is gettin' the best of me
I thought that I'd get through this eventually
I need help, should I check into therapy?
Cuz I am barely
Hangin on, and I am scared of me
I cannot handle it, I am aware of it
All these people have so much happiness
Why don't you share with me?

I beg for help but no one helps
I cannot do this by myself
God, Where you at?!

Please
God I'm cryin' out for help
I'm on my knees
God I'm living in a hell
Can't you see
I can't do this very well
I need to breathe
I am way to overwhelmed
Set me free

Got a variety of different types of anxiety
They always sneakin' up on me and surprisin' me
I'm never ready so it's like playing hide and seek
My mind is weak I only see the negative side of things
I got depression but I keep on denying it

Maybe thats exactly why I never get better
I never seek help, never look for the answer
Darkness is growing inside of me like a cancer
Fact is, I'm wallowing in blackness
Not actin, this shit is f*ckin' taxing
Feels like I am trapped in, an attic
Full of memories of the past year
Mouth will never shut but the latch did
Now I'm trapped here
Maybe its symbolic, cuz I'm livin in the past yeah

I got scars, I got scratches
I am sharp just like a cactus
Somebody get me a casket
Take me away I've f*ckin' had it
No!
Nevermind!
That's not what I want
What I need is somebody to help me
I'm screaming and yelling
Feel like I'm losing myself and
God I need you to protect me
Where are you, I am empty
I just need you to send me
Somethin' that is as simply
As a sign to show me I'll make it
Don't know how much more I can take of this
Stress that I have been facin'
It's driving me to my breakin
Point I'm gonna need to start takin'
Some type of medication
I'm sick of bein' patient
All this time, it has been wasted
I need to face it