Jay Alexander - Free (feat. Rainy & TheDeadRoze) Lyrics

Yeah, let me tweak that shit some
There we go

Free at last, yelling free at last
I can finally escape from my broken past
Nail the coffin, alert the gravediggers
Etch it's tombstone, "the negative couldn't fail bigger"
How do you figure? Well here, I'll lay it out for you
So pull up a chair and we'll have a convo for two
I have not yet been defeated or discouraged from this
And yet I'm already starting to look up, so shit
I guess that I'm beginning to see the positive in life
And seeing less and less of a personal draw to the knife
So instead, I think I'll just jot the ink to the pages
This is my life now, f*ck your jobs of min wages
I make the shit that never dies, sin don't age
I am free now, I'll never be put to a cage
Let the sparrows call out, let the sirens sing
This time I won't fall out and ruin everything

Everything is starting to look up for me
I'm accepting that I am finally free

I've been living under pressure, like holding up the sky
Struggling with depression, wondering if I would die
Every day and every night I would pray to be alright
Every second was a fight for my life and I'm
Afraid that I might pick up the knife again
Afraid that I might stray from the light again
I don't wanna go through all that shit again
But I'm trying to move on from this state I'm in
Music gave me hope, now it's everything I got
And I guess I should have known, I'm trying to be what I'm not
But I won't stop dreaming until that day
When I can look back at myself and I see the change, yeah
I don't care what they say
I'm me, I'm myself, and the haters will hate
I might fall down, but I'll get right back up
And I'll be stronger than I was when I pick that mic back up

Everything is starting to look up for me
I'm accepting that I am finally free

Bitch, I'm finally free
Bitch, I'm finally me
Don't give a f*ck about that hoe that left my heartbroken
You left my heart in chains, left me locked away
Let me feel so insane
Now I'm up, now I'm doing shit I never done before
Making rap music, making every day a good day
Remember I used to come home every day
Got on the Play Station and contemplate
How maybe I should blow my brains
Maybe the Earth don't deserve someone as good as me
Maybe no one deserves me
Maybe I don't deserve me
Maybe I don't deserve life
Maybe I just deserve all the pain that's coming my way
Maybe I deserve for my life to be turning sideways
Anyway, it is all the pain that just stacks up in my brain
Take this shit like every day
I can't take it no more

Everything is starting to look up for me
I'm accepting that I am finally free