Jaxon Cash - since a kid Lyrics

I'm wondering what did I miss
I don't how to get over this
All the thoughts and the memories
Lost in the melody
What do I get?

I don't wanna feel like we did when we were
Just some kids out here that didn't know why
All of the pain that we held in the night
Would haunt us years later we cannot fight
All of the pain that we hide in our lives
I lost it that night when you said goodbye
(goodbye)
I couldn't take it I took out my knife
And thought about it before I took my

And it's too hard to sleep now
And it's too hard to breathe now
All the thoughts that we held out
They're so lost in the past now

I can't give up no not today
I feel so broke down I just wanna way out
From this place
Cause I don't feel okay
You said you were the one for me
And now you are lost at sea
And I don't know how to cope anymore

And it's too hard to sleep now
And it's too hard to breathe now
All the thoughts that we held out
They're so lost in the past now

I don't wanna be alone
But I know that your long gone
And its too hard to sleep now

(it's too hard it's too hard)

I
Don't wanna die
No not tonight
Just be by my side

I'm wondering what did I miss
I don't how to get over this
All the thoughts and the memories
Lost in the melody
What do I get?

Thinking about all that I missed
Cuz I pushed you away since a kid
Thinking to myself "awe man"
Guess this is what I get

And it's too hard to sleep now
And it's too hard to breathe now
All the thoughts that we held out
They're so lost in the past now

Hey so this is a little awkward
But I kind of just wanted to call and get it over with
Um things haven't really been working out so well between us
And I just
I think it's time for both of us to kind of just move forward
Um I care about you a lot but I think that this is the best decision for me
So yeah