Jakeypoo - Wretched Existence Lyrics

I love and resent lying in this bed with you
I yearned for something I wished I could have
And put burdens on another

In total falsehood, disarray
Misunderstanding all that which should be true Grace
This is how I know things aren't supposed to be this way

It doesn't help that you're only a fraction of who you really are
I'm lying with somebody else; now I'm lyin' to myself

How proud I am to have integrated this Truth or else you'd resent me
Yet we're still dead; Looking into each other's eyes
Pleading from each other for new life

Come and cuddle up with me
The only thing to make me feel happy and sane in this wretched existence
To have who I wish you were is to be pretending
'Cause I know you don't have faith in yourself to be anything more

But I do
Still, that's not enough to you

For you to live as this potential I see deep down
So you ran away

You keep running from yourself
Afraid to lose all that you yearn to love

But little do you understand
That if you could see the Truth to reality
If you were to live up to this
You would fulfill everybody's dreams, including your own

Behind that self-harm and anxiety

I always wished holding you could've been the one thing to make you feel okay
But no words can explain
And nothing is enough to cut away
At that hurt, you have in your heart

And now I see you wanna cuddle up with him instead
Maybe 'cause we both been living a wretched existence
To have who you or I wish you could be is just fake if I stay
And I know you don't have faith in yourself to be so much more

You know how much I hate making promises, but listen closely
I promise you-you're so much more