Jakeson - My Confession Lyrics

Let me ask you a question
The answer might be a confession

I'm asking myself questions
All along I know the answers
I can't help but face the facts
That maybe I'm not meant to
Have 'em: all the things I see
In my dreams, like money
Power, fame and ease. Is my
Life meant for something more
That I have yet to see. I think
Anything would better than
What I'm doing right now
Cause money's tight and
Nearly gone, but yet I spend
It to write these songs
How can I do this consciously
What if I jeopardize my family
With this music, am I clueless
Or just stupid chasing fantasies
Or is this my time with the
Wind at my back, not looking
Back, and my course on track
And a fight to the death so I
Can put to rest things that
Hold me back and distract
My focus. God knows I want
This. God knows I want this
Y'all hear me cry this! Y'all
Hear me cry this is my confession

Now you know the war inside
I try to hide, this constant fight
I face each day inside the mirror
When I see my face stretched in
A line. Draw in the sand what life
Demands: my family's plan, not
My demands. I'll kill for them
And I'll die for them, you bet your
Ass I'll quit music for them! I don't
Know what I should be doing
I'm stuck between what I love
And what I love doing. Should
I pack this all up and start to
Sell all my stuff? We might still
End up broke. And then I'll choke
On my words. Or this my time
With the fight in my heart and
Mark that met the arrow I let fly
I'm no passerby, I won't stand
Aside, I'll stand my ground and
Won't shut my mouth, I'll spit
These rhymes like I might die
Remind me why I thought I
Couldn't take what I wanted
That's so retarded. Ya'll hear
Me cry this, my confession

I'm fighting on and on and on
I'm fighting myself. Am I wrong