Jake Darus - Out of Control Lyrics

I'm sorry if this is hard to listen to
But I got to let it out man

Honestly should've seen all of this coming
I've been escaping avoiding and running
I am an addict, addicted to pills
Addicted to honestly see how it feels
Don't you remember when I made emotionless?
After a year I am feeling the same
Talk about feelings but feeling the hopelessness
The rejection the trauma and pain
I went to opiates only to cope
I go to music now only for hope
Really I should be expressing myself
Instead of just keeping it all on the shelf
Now, I'm sick and tired of hiding
The man I became but the man that I am
Right now I'm fighting off all of these demons
As everything currently just hit the fan
I chose to burn, too many bridges
I chose to learn, too many lessons
I know that writing about it is not gonna fix it
But I have one hell of a blessing
Prefrontal cortex is in adolescence
Don't you expect all the highs and the lows?
Don't you expect when I'm sending a message
At times I do not know what to compose?

I'm out of control, I know that I am
I'm going insane, I know that I am
I'm out of control, I know that I am
I'm going insane, I know that I am
I'm out of control, I know that I am
I'm going insane, I know that I am
I'm out of control, I know that I am
I'm going insane, I know that I am

I let other people control how I think
My heart and my mind are never in sync
I've always thought if I added more pressure
I was gonna swim, I went to sink
I went to pills, I went to drinks
I went to rage, blackout and blink
Wake up and I would regret everything
All for attention like promising rings
Validation I crave I'm a fiend
My dedication is all for the dream
I know emotionally I'm extreme
This is what happens when you see defeat
Spend every hour and minute to rap
Sorry that mentally I had to snap
Sorry I've treated so many so bad
This is what happens when you're going mad

I'm out of control, I know that I am
I'm going insane, I know that I am
I'm out of control, I know that I am
I'm going insane, I know that I am

I'm out of control but i'm trying to change
Out of control but i'm trying to change
Out of control but i'm going to therapy
Really because I am trying to change
Out of control and i'm trying to change
Out of control and i'm trying to change
Out of control but i'm doing just everything
In my power to try and just change