Jahmaol Clark - Homecoming King (feat. Mathai) Lyrics

When I grow up I just wanna be
Homecoming King, Homecoming King
I'm banking on this opportunity
To finally find identity (Yeah)
I was sad and depressed
No happiness left
I didn't have any rest
The fashion I kept was masking my flesh
Cuz I was naked and with these leaves I stayed hid
Inside of me still the same kid
Tryna cover shame with make shift figs
Depression left me oppressed
Obsessed with acceptance
And doubted my purpose
A skeptic guessin' expression
And dressed to impress
To reflect my earnest
Desire for respect
Cuz I'm tired and regret
My entire collection of purchases
Of treasures invested in hurts
In conception and birth
Suggestin' I'm worthless (ugh)
Looking for significance
In my mother's womb I was knitted in
And all my intricacies are benefits
That God spent time and intention in
But I thought about dying cuz I ain't know was living is
Go to college, get a job and the biggest crib
Was the mission then but it didn't fit me
When I grow up I just wanna be
Homecoming King, Homecoming King
I'm banking on this opportunity
To finally find identity (yeah)
King, King, King. Homecoming.
King, King, King. Homecoming.
I put my hope in what people thought of me
So insecure their opinion bothered me
An empty well leading straight to hell
And wondered why my depression slaughtered me
Lost all that I put my hope in
Lost motivation and couldn't focus
Praying hard hoping God would show up
But stripped away what I used to cope with
I was broken and sought completion
In other things outside of Jesus
But popularity couldn't fulfill me
Then God showed me He was all I needed
Used to think about ending my life
But by God's grace I'm still breathing
My way was wrong
And His way was right
And redeemed my life for His Holy kingdom
I sought to be king but told me come home
I was never fit to be on His throne
Never felt loved and always alone
Despite the many people I've always known (Yeah)
And that was my life's dream
To be liked and seen
Won homecoming king
But in two weeks would be a fluke to me
Like a quick high that would soon leave
When I grow up I just wanna be
Homecoming King, Homecoming King
I'm banking on this opportunity
To finally find identity (Yeah)
King, King, King. Homecoming
King, King, King. Homecoming
I believe in my vision
I'm a king on a mission
Used to seek for attention
But now I see why I'm living
I Wasn't told I was Knitted
Ever Since the beginning
But one day in my kitchen
God showed me why I existed
I believe in my vision
I'm a king on a mission
Used to seek for attention
But now I see why I'm living
I Wasn't told I was Knitted
Ever Since the beginning
But one day in my kitchen
God showed me why I existed
And I heard Him say
Come home to me
Come home to me
Cuz where my Spirit is
You will be free
Come home to me
Come home to me
Lay your crown down
You should just
Come home
Come home
Come home
Come home to me
Come home
Come home
Come home
Come home to me
You have made us for yourself oh Lord
And our hearts are restless
Until they rest, in you